Blood on my hands

Chapter 4- Alone

Lately I've felt so alone. I don't know why. I feel like I can't relate to anyone anymore. I'm in my room holding my stuffed fox. Wearing the same hoodie I had on last time. HIS hoodie. It was the only thing that brought me comfort. I felt alone in my pity. In my pain, my sadness, my fear. I began to have a panic attack. I couldn't handle all these thoughts running through my head. I sang to let them out.

^All these thoughts in my head, I can't let out. All these voices that I hear I can't shut down. They tell me I'm worthless that I'm a coward. They say I'm so stupid can't do anything right. Life for so tough. U wanted to die. I built my own prison to stay so alone. Someone save me. But don't take me home.
All I wanted was to be like you but you left me all too soon. It killed me when I had to say goodbye. Someone please tell me why. Why do I feel feel so alone? Is it my fault that I don't want to hold on. I'm broken to pieces soon I'll be all gone. I know I can't be the only one. Why do I feel so alone? Is it my fault I don't want to hold on? I'm broken to pieces soon I'll be all gone. I know I can't be the only one.
    What did I ever do wrong to deserve such pain. Was I never meant to be here? What did I do wrong to deserve this hate? I don't know if I should stay here. Don't tell me it'll be okay cuz we all know it's not. Don't tell me I can be the same cause you don't know what I am. All this hell I've seen makes me sweat so hot. I'll try to stay okay for as long as I can.
   It's too late for me to stay. My life will never be okay. It's too late for me to say, I love you even though you saved me. You hold me every night and tell me it's alright but I don't know the truth! I'm sorry everyone. I don't know what to do.
   All I wanted was to be like you but you left me all too soon. It killed me when I had to say goodbye. Someone please tell me why. Why do I feel feel so alone? Is it my fault that I don't want to hold on. I'm broken to pieces soon I'll be all gone. I know I can't be the only one. Why do I feel so alone? Is it my fault I don't want to hold on? I'm broken to pieces soon I'll be all gone. I know I can't be the only one. I know I can't be the only one.^

The door is open, people had tears. Dabi had blood coming from his eyes.
"I didn't know you guys were there."
"Are you okay, like really? Because your words make it sound like you want to die."
"I will be. I just need a drink and some chicken."
"Don't say the "C" word. It will summon a bird."
"Sorry. Man I need some sleep. And cuddles."
"I'm on my way babe."
I heard tomura yell from the game room. People were shocked. He pushed his way into the room and tackled me onto the bed. I laughed and ruffled his hair.
" I love you Tomura. You know that right?"
"I do now. I love you too."
"Can I play call of duty with you?"
"Of course babe. But you're gonna lose."
"Eh. I don't mind. As long as I'm with you."
Soon another voice spoke up.
"Uh what the fuck is going on? Crusty has a girlfriend?"
"Yeah. He does. Deal with it bacon bits."
"Don't call me that."
"You do realize I am stronger than all might right? I could kill you if I really tried. Leave my room before I feed you your own balls."
"Yes ma'am."
Everyone left and my boyfriend kept cuddling me.
"I am never going to let you go Tomura Shigaraki. You are mine. Always and Forever."
"I wouldn't mind that. Let's just stay here for a while."
"Of course babe."
I looked at him as his head rested on my chest. Listening to my heartbeat.
"Babe?"
"Hmm?"
"Look at me for a second."
"Okay?"
He sat up and looked at me with a questioning look on his face. I put my hand up to his cheek and rubbed my thumb around in a circle. I slowly leaned in and our lips connected in an explosion of love. His hand softly gripping my waist making sure I don't leave. I climbed onto his lap and played with his hair as I kissed him. When I pulled away for air, I only saw love in his eyes.
"I've never kissed anyone before. It felt good."
"Tomura. You never kissed anyone before me?"
"No."
"Well. There's a first time for everything."
His hand came up to my cheek and pulled me into another kiss. My arms wrapping around his neck. I love him. So much. I pulled away for air to talk.
"Tomura. It's late. We should go to bed."
"Can we take a bath together babe? Than go to bed?"
"Sure."