JOURNALED

Hm....

Ah... How can I say this.... Empty? That's what I am I guess you could say. Um.... This is normally normal to me bc I write it out in a sketchbook but I want to do this just in case anybody else felt the same... In a sense I numbed my depression. I begged for it to stop and look at that.... It stopped...

There are rules I want you to follow.
If u can't follow them then goodbye.

Do not give me any sentimental messages. It doesn't effect me... People have tried helping me. But only music and a journal work.

I love anybody who loves me.... Uhm if u hate me that's fine.... I would hate me too.... Please don't say anything about feeling bad.... Bc if you're here, you're for a reason. That reason is u relate or you're looking for a better understanding.

My name is Rami. (R- ah- me). That's not my real name. It's a persona I'm stepping into.

Well let's get started...

Ok. I have a tendency to help people and not use my own advise. Thats a me problem, I know. But it's like I'm better with telling someone something, they trust me, then they feel the need to tell me everything.

That's cool. I don't mind. At all... But now that I've told half of my story to a couple people it's weird because they feel the need to check on me..

It's uncomfortable I really don't need that.... I don't need the pity.... I need loyalty. Show me that even if we fall out that you can keep my secrets or whatever humans call it safe.

It's weird because I'm not scared of anything. But myself. My mind. It's too powerful. My 'what if's happen too much.

BUT I'm trying to keep up with myself. I'm trying to gather it up and fix it. While I'm here at least.

Um.. I found a note in my phone in March of 2022. It's what month now? Do the calculations.

I don't know if I want to post it... I don't know how I feel about it but I know I've grown from it...

I don't know where I stand... I don't know how to put my words.... I don't feel like I'm alone but I feel like.. I'm playing a multiplayer game by myself if u get what I'm saying...

I have advise. If you feel as if you're slipping into some state of sadness it doesn't have to be depression. Like a minor state of sadness.

IT DOES NOT MATTER. JOURNAL.

I would recommend. I wouldn't say cutting or hurting yourself in any shape or form... Find your cure.

your source of happiness.

Well! That's all I can pour out on you today hopefully you feel relaxed that someone feels the same way you do!

HAVE A GOOD DAY

I love you.

Bye