⚠︎Tʜᴇ Aᴛᴛᴀᴄᴋ⚠︎ Inanimate Insanity (Old)

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 11: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙾𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚎𝚛

Warning ⚠️: Language, mention of suicide, mention of cutting

Midnight.

Fan's Pov
Yin-Yang was just talking to Brushy and Painty, and they were making sure that Painty was okay.

But something was off-

Yang usually argues with Yin, but Yang wasn't talking much, it was like he was completely zoned out about something.

I could see the sadness in his eye.

Is he upset about something?

I know I shouldn't be thinking about him since a lot of people would rather care about Yin since he was the better behaved one. But Yang looked upset. And then I noticed something.. he was wearing long sleeves.

Do they cut? No they would never.

..Would they?

Yang's Pov
I was upset and overthinking, I couldn't get the thoughts out of my head, they were like a crowd of people, you can't just get rid of them..

"Yang, are you there?" Yin asked.

"Oh, uhm- yes, sorry." I say.

"When's Lightbulb coming back?" Paintbrush asked.

"Maybe in a minute or two?" Yin replied.

And then when we were just talking about Lightbulb, she walked into the conversation.

"I'm back!" Lightbulb excitedly said.

"Oh and Yin-Yang, here's your rice krispies treat!" Lightbulb added.

"Yay!" Yin cheered.

"Wait- do we go back in our room now?" Yin asked.

"Yeah, you're already done, and you did a great job taking care of Painty! Thank you!" Lightbulb cheered.

Then we went back into our room.

"Yang? Are you feeling alright?" Yin asked me.

"Yeah I am feeling alright." I reply.

Not..

I didn't feel alright at all, I felt sad, upset, frustrated, mad, all those feelings swirled around me like a tornado.

Why am I mad at myself?
Why do I want to kill myself?
What if everyone is annoyed of me?
Am I really the menace here?
What if I died and nobody cares?
Should I cut myself more when Yin isn't attached to me?

I shook my head to try and forget the thoughts but it didn't, it just made me dizzy, and sick.

Why couldn't I be like Yin..

I want to be helpful and happy but instead I'm a fucking idiot that creates more hate for myself and does shitty things, someone who fucking hates themself and feels like they aren't good enough....

I want myself dead.

Who the fuck would care anyways? It's not likely that Paintbrush would care. It's more likely that everyone wouldn't give a fuck. Why? Because I was the problem.

(A/N: tbh I just had to get my thoughts out.. I hope you all enjoy this page because my head started giving me headaches after this! is it worth it? If it means making you all get to read another page then yes.
I hope y'all are having a better day than me!! I need someone to fucking vent and cry to.. anyways, hope you enjoy!!)

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