You used to fill me butterflies
down my belly
then the day came
you said my smiles made you wet
thought i knew what you meant
your world being my world. damn, what more would i want?
i didn't realise deep down you were burning
for the line between Heaven and hell is too thin
you fell in love with the me that i can never be
i had faked myself till there was no me
it is the demons in us that pulled us together
we didn't resist nor fight them for we felt better
being just vessels without care where life would take us
suicide songs and poems felt like wine
often arguing with my inner voice on the day
I would end it all, hoping to somehow convince my self all would be well
if I pulled the trigger.
but then, a voice said to me 'you think you're the first to walk under then sun, son?
'be the man, that I created you to be, you are a star but blind to how bright you shine'
so I gave my life to Christ and the cliff of death moved further
life is too short to live burdened.
seek and it shall answered
