Till Death Do Us Part

resisting touch

Heading off the best mall out of town, in the car with Karissa I asked
"so were are we going exactly."

Karissa was so pumped, I could tell by the look on her face.

"Just wait and see.. I said I'll make up to you, not just that you could use some fun. So you'll see"

She said overly excited

I still don't know what to think about any of this, I'm still wondering if it's a joke but I'm kind of hesitating on trusting anyone, that's because of my past though. Sitting in the car waiting to arrive with a bunch of awkward silence so I brought up the situation that happen before we arrived at her house, and all this happen. So I asked about it.

"hey, so what was going on earlier?" I asked out of the ordinary

I could see the feeling she had in her eyes, and just looking at her I wanted to cry; it was that bad. Can't stand seeing her like this. Thinking to myself as she began to explain.

"Jacob cheated on me, I told him I was through with everything, he got mad an hit me, I made a report, told my mother an father about it and nothing is getting done about it. He told me I wasn't going anywhere."

A tear was pulled from the bottom of her eye lid to slide down her cheek and drip of her chain. I don't know what to say, I've never been in a relationship, boys run from me so I don't deal with them nether. Asking myself three or four times, what do I say, what do I say, just what in the hell do I say.

So then I asked

"What's going on now then?"

I got no reply, she change subject by pointing out the mall, while we find a parking spot.

Looking out of my window seeing this huge mall that normal teens, trouble teens, nerdy ones and cool ones. rushing around, hanging out and having fun.

Karissa pulls in the open space, turns off the car then looked at me with a smile an a enjoyment look if her eye, she said.

"You ready?"

I took a deep breath, looked out of the window at everyone then answered her with a hesitate feeling
" Ready as I'll ever be..."

We both stepped out of the car and then began to walk over the main entrance. Before we got at least a yard away I took one last deep breath, with a deep exhale. Entering the doors I see so many more people in side hanging out, a huge fountain in the middle it was white and a baby blue, with three bases of the water; stores were everywhere. There was a food court that smelled really good, it was all different too like Chines food, Mexican food, and so much more.

I just kinda felt like a outcast, but it was a good thing. I was somewhere would I wouldn't get judged, next to one of the most popular girls in the town I was born and raised in.But I still felt the feeling of no one caring, I had no idea where my mother was I had a few other people who hared me. I just had no idea what to do anymore, being to myself I sooner or later brought my actions back to Karissa.

"so where do you want to go first?"

Karissa asked with a giant smile apun her face like she was about to jump out of her skin.

I just clamed up to myself and was quiet for a minute then began to talk. "Ummmmm, I've never been here or anything here so you chose"

Now Karissa didn't get in to what Jade did so she really didn't know what to do now, Karissa stopped to think...
"Are you hungry?"

I just stood their staring around me in a blanced dream not knowing how to react, not knowing how to even breath. honestly once or twice I forgot how to breath, just everything here isn't real it can't be anyway it's so crazy. Me the most invisable girl in school with the most beautiful, talented and popular girl in school. I almost turn to Karissa an ask her to pinch me because, this is all just a dream!

Sooner or later I remembered that she was here and it was reality, so I turned and awnsered not really knowing what I was pose to say to that, do I awnser truthfully or do I just keep my profile on the low down.

"Umm, well to be honest...kinda"

Just make sure no one knows the real me, but me, to be completely honest though I don't even know the real me. not one little bit not even a tad, no history to know about were I come from I'm just well me and let me tell you first hand its not fun, not at all.

Karissa just stands their, I think she knows I dont know what I want, I dont know for sure, I dont know alot anymore if it don't have to do with art, music and writing like you see this right; just rediculouse.

so I'm sitting with Karissa since I said I was hungry we both eat it was just so good we had, Italian pizza and ice cream, but not just any type of ice cream, perfect, delicous, amazing purple pumpkin haze. After we both put down our food, we just stared at each other not even knowing what to say, technically was just weird between both of us. Than I looked down and that's when she asked whats wrong, what was I suppose to say no one, I mean no one has ever asked me what's wrong, like what do I even say to that, this is a once in a life time opportunity, my minds just blown away right now. But as always it don't matter it never does, it never has, and it never will, nothing has changed from the second I never even spoke to her an I was the most invisable person in high school. Nothing will ever change in this life its just a damn lie, I just have to face the fact that this life is just hell and it will never change until the day I die.

Maybe it won't even change then, just all of this is just a mistrearious thing without a answer.

So after the day passes by, we head back to her house, the back seat it full of cloths and shoes. Believe it or not but I actually enjoyed every little second of it, I updated my wardrobe not a lot though, I hate asking people for things, honestly.

After we got back I told her I was just gonna take a walk, alone. When I went on that walk, I didn't go back.