EXPERIENCE (english version) [+18]

11 - edward cullen da silva

yea so billie actually didn't let me go on tour with her. not because of her car seat, i think she didn't want to be seen with some "lover" or something... maybe we are just a sex thing after all. or she just hates me, i don't know.

i don't think she just want to fuck me, cause we were having fun in non sexual ways before tour, and she seems to enjoy it. maybe we just have a lot of hormones. like A LOT. it makes sense, right? cause we're 18.

and maybe i think about it too much?

it makes sense, right? cause i'm 18.

i spend almost three months trying to figure that out, trying not to overthink too much. i wasn't mad, just a little bit sad, but that's ok.

i started hitting the gym and seeing other people, hooking up, going to parties and having fun. it was pretty good! but of course, i was missing billie. we chat everyday and i was reaaally getting feelings for her. very dangerous.

it was 19 p.m when billie send me a text saying she was finally in town. my heart almost exploded and for a minute i just stared at her message saying "see you in 10".

i tried to clean up the house as fast as possible but i was trembling like crazy and i knew billie wouldn't mind so i just gave up.

i heard the familiar four knocks on the door and smiled openly. i opened it and immediately wanted to marry her. she was with a new hair color, dark and green. i think only her in the entire planet could pull this off.

- hey - she smiled, looking kinda shy

- hey - i said

we looked at eachother for a couple more seconds then hugged really hard. i felt my entire life problems going away, all the anxiety disappearing. when we separated, for my surprise, she kissed me passionately. i grab her body and spin her around, making her laugh.

- i missed you so bad - she said, smiling with her forehead sticking to mine

- i missed you too

we got to the kitchen and i start to make her dinner.

- so do you cook now? - she asked, sitting on the kitchen bench

- kinda, to stay fitness you gotta do your own food - i answered

- oh, yeah, you look really strong now - she smiles

- do i? - i smile back, picking up the ingredients

- really hot

i didn't answer cause i didn't know what to say.

- so that car moment was just a moment, you're shy again? - she giggles

- actually i'm not that shy now - i giggle back - i have like... i have been i have been seen... i didn't know how to say it

- people? hooking up? - she asks

- yeah

- hey that's ok! - she laughs - don't feel ashamed to say cause...

- no, i just didn't knew how to say it in english cause i'm not that good at past perfect, present perfect i don't know

billie busts off laughing, and i do too.

- ohh, so you're confident now, uh? - she asks as i pick up a pan

- yeah, i guess, i just know more about me and my body now

- have these people teached you something cool? - she asks

- no... actually yes - i said, laughing as i remembered something

- really? show me! - she asks, curious