ᴍʏ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ʜᴀʟꜰ- ᴍᴀᴛᴛ ꜱᴛᴜʀɴɪᴏʟᴏ

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camila couldn't sleep that night. after nick revealed that she had unintentionally told everyone about matt's secret girlfriend, she had hung up immediately. making matt's relationship public was the last thing she wanted to do. she saw texts from her friends, but no amount of reassurance would make her feel better.

big bird is going to kill nick

nickypoo
hi cami we added you to our gc

christopher
no shit

matt
shut up chris

nickypoo
shut up

christopher
anyway we wanted to tell you that what
happened wasn't your fault at all we know
you didn't mean it

nickypoo
yeah like genuinely babe we know it wasn't
intentional we should've given you some
warning or something to not talk about her

matt
yeah there's no way you could've
known nobody's mad at you

alahna<333

babe i just saw what happened on that
sturniolonews ig i told her to take it down
only like two hundred people saw it and
they all prolly knew alr

itll blow over soon ml i promise people
will be talking about la

call madi and me if u wanna talk ab it

madi<333

omg i was on the live i saw what happened

tbh loren's happy about it so
dw about her

she always felt like matt was hiding
her

but ik ur feeling like shit about it so don't
because there's absolutely no way you
would've known, like i fell for it too and so
did alahna and elmer and like everyone.
it's not your fault at all please dont feel guilty

ilysm please call me or alahna if you wanna
talk or if youre feeling shit

at one in the morning, camila took madi and alahna up on their offer and facetimed them. madi didn't pick up, she was most likely out somewhere but alahna did. she cried and ranted to alahna, and after a bit she felt comforted. alahna didn't even say anything but just her presence made her feel a million times better than ever. she didn't think someone could make her so happy.

except matt.

she hung up on alahna after a while. all she could think about was matt. his smile, his eyes, his voice- everything. he refused to leave her thoughts. she started to think about the blindfolded baking video she did with him and when he held her, comforting her. he was what she needed right now. and the fact that she couldn't have him hurt her. she physically felt her heart aching for him. she ached for him to hold her and tell her that everything would be okay. camila fell asleep thinking of him, wearing the hoodie that he had left at her house months ago that still smelled like him.

guilt weighed her heart down though. how could she have a crush on a guy who has a girlfriend? matt was happy, that should be enough for her. and anyway it's not like she was in love with him, she had a crush on him for a month, that was it. the more she thought about it, the more guilty she felt. she was plagued by 'what if' and what could've been. that made it worse somehow, the fact that there was never actually anything there.