Nat And Lena's little sister

chapter 5

Alinas pov

I walk into my room and I can hear Wanda's footsteps walking away from my door.

I walk into the bathroom that's built into my bedroom and turn on the shower. Yelena would love to live here.

I go to my bag and grab the only spare pair of clothes thta I packed put them in the bathroom on top of the bench.

I lock the door just in case and get undressed then get inside the freezing cold shower. I know alot of yous are going to think that I'm crazy for having freezing cold showers but it's what I've had my whole life so when I tried a warm shower for the first time it just felt wrong and I decided I would stick with the cold ones, I do sometimes get flashbacks of when I would have cold showers from the red room but the warm ones are just way to uncomfortable for me.

I stand there for a while trying to figure out if I want to cry or not...I only ever cry when I have panic attacks but that's because I can't control it and I haven't had one in a while which means I haven't cried for a while and I don't want to break that streak. But the things he called me just reminded me of him so much that I got stuck in flashbacks and couldn't even stick up for myself. What kind of an idiot am I if I've been taught every single marshal art but can't even stick up for myself? I'm so fucking stupid and for that I don't deserve to cry. I'm gonna hold it in untill I deserve to let it out.

I start scrubbing my body as hard and as much as I could because even tho he only touched my mouth it made me think of Mr. Jones and what he would do and I feel so gross. No matter how much I scrub myself the feeling won't go away so I move on and wash my hair and then quickly hop out and get dressed so that I can brush my teeth.

I brush over and over again because I can still feel his mouth on mine and I hate it. My teeth start to bleed but I keep going anyways.

*Knock knock* someone knocks on my bedroom door.

"Who is it?"

"It's nat"

"Come in"

I hear her open the door and walk in so I wrince out my mouth and start to wash my toothbrush.

"Where are you?" She asks

"I'm in the bathroom, I'll be there soon"

"Okay" and I hear her sit on the bed...SHIT! THE BED!

I forgot I left my vape under the covers and I really hope she doesn't go under them or starts to make my bed or some shit because then she'll find it. I quickly finish up and rush outside of my bathroom.

I walk out and see her sitting at the end of my bed.

"Hi?" I say

"What was that about?"

"What was what about?" I say generally confused

"With Steve? Your usually really bad when it comes to people being dickheads, what happened?"

"Wow, thanks for the compliment" I say trying to stall a little bit so that I can come up with an awnser because I know once she wants to know something she won't let it go.

"Your welcome, now tell me what happened?"

"What? You rather have me be an ass to your teammates?" I say still trying to stall.

"No it's just that you weren't yourself and Im asking you why"

"Well I'm sorry to break it to you but not everyone gets everything they ask for" I kinda snap at her and I didn't mean to be harsh but I mean she's getting on my nerves so?