Dreams that hurt

Chapter four- Tears everywhere..

Green, green everywhere, slowly forming into trees, I think I’m in a forest. The ground crunches as I walk, where am I going? I don’t know but I have a bad feeling, something is not right. I stop and see a body; it’s a man lying on the green grass with red flowers around his head. I walk closer towards him; wait it’s not flowers but blood all around his head. My feet are now running to him and I see it’s my dad. I stop and look up to see a black figure looking at me……“Blair wake up”  

My eyes open with Xavier looking at me; I’m crying and sweating again. I hug him and cry into his chest. He holds me tight rubbing my back.

“Everything is fine, you are with me now.”

That’s all he says and I just cry in his arms, breathing in his smell.

What feels like ten minutes later has been about an hour, I had finally stopped crying. I look up into Xavier eyes and instead of them having the normal sparkle; they are shinny swelled up like he was also crying.

“I’m sorry.” I say almost a whisper.

   “Blair Elise Reed, don’t say that you have done nothing wrong. Who made you feel like this? Whoever it is they will be blind by the time I am finished with them!” Xavier said, this makes me smile inside as I know he is here which makes up my decision. I am going to tell him.

About two hours later we are still sitting in my wet, nearly dry bed and I had just finished telling him about everything, the dreams with all the detail I could remember. He just sits there; I think he might have been trying to think about it but I’m not sure. He has an expression I have never seen before. Maybe he is confused or worried, I am not sure.

“I am sorry, I shouldn’t have said anything. Sorry.” I say, wanting to know what was going on in his brain and feeling my eyes slowly tear up again.

   “Don’t be sorry. I am glad you have told me. Come here.” He grabs me and pulls me into his arms. “Love, you have to remember that these are just dreams and do not mean anything at all. Plus always know I am here, if you have any more dreams tell me and I will help.”

I don’t say anything just hug him with all my might and squeezes me tighter, I look up into those eyes again and we kiss, but this was no normal kiss, it had more passion and made me smile with delight.

After we kissed for…… awhile, we went down stairs and had some lunch which was surprising really delicious even though it was just a sandwich. I looked up at the time and saw my mum would be back in an hour which meant Xavier had to go.

“Xav, with great disappointment I have to say that it’s time for you to go” I said, pouting my lip and trying not to laugh.

“Ok beautiful.” Xavier said, pouting his face as well. He grabbed me and pulled me into him and we kissed, the same way as we did before but with more passion. Xavier pulled me in closer to him and now there was no space in between us. He pushes me up against the wall and draws circles on my back, my hands twisting his hair. This kiss was getting heated and I knew if we didn’t stop my mum would walk in the house to see Xavier and I making out so I slowly pulled away even though every bone in my body was saying not to. We stood there for a while looking into each other eyes, he then grabbed my hand and took me to the door. As we walked he squeezed my hand tighter sending a shiver down my spine followed by a smile. This got me thinking, what had I ever done to deserve such an amazing boyfriend who cares and loves me for whom I am? You know what who cares he is mine and always will be. Xavier kissed my forehead and my face scrunched up with happiness.

 “Bye sweetheart, have a good sleep. Call me.” Xavier told me as he walked out my door into the boring street, making him look like an angel.

I close the door and smile, I’m so glad he came over today otherwise, well I think I might have gone crazy and plus Xavier is right they are just dreams. So I think it’s time to snuggle up in my blanks on the couch and watch a movie, wait I have to wash my sheets. I drag myself into my room, one foot after another, which might I add is a mess; I get the sheets and put them on to wash. They are heavy pulling my arms down. Now I can start a movie before mum gets home but the question is what movie? Maybe a massive chick flick, as I run my hand down the selections of DVDs I decide on ‘The Notebook’ and snuggle in my blankets on my couch which warms up my feet and makes me smile yet again, just as mum walks through the door. She looks amazing in her lady suit (as I like to call it) with her hair straitened and put back in a ponytail.

    “Hello darling, I got your text but was in a meeting all day so I couldn’t come home. How are you feeling?” She says to me as she walks over and hugs me on the couch. This makes this day even more perfect because I know that these two amazing people will never hurt me.

“Yeah I’m feeling way better now just thought I would watch a movie.”

  “Good idea, well I am going to make myself a coffee to go as my boss wants me back at work. Do you feel ok to get Zoe from the bus stop?”

“Yep that’s fine.”

Mum gets up and in a matter of 10 minutes is gone again.