Through the window

Nineteen

22nd May

"I mean, will you go on a date with me?" I stand there shocked with wide eyes. Did he just...

Ask me out...

On a date?

Huh? "Huh?" The word falls out of me as he rubs his face with a hand harshly, like he didn't mean to just ask so abruptly.

"I had planned on asking you this better but clearly I'm no good with words" he breathes out a small laugh, an awkward one. He seems afraid of my answer so when I open my mouth to reply he leans in-

But then covers my mouth with his hand?

"Don't reply, it's fine if you don't want to. I know that you're not out yet so it'd be pretty weird if we went on a date. And it would be your first date so the pressure of making it amazing would probably be too much and I'd freak out, sort of like I'm doing right now. Oh my god I'm making a right shit of myself aren't i-"

I bite down on his hand- which tastes like salt and I almost gag at that and try to convince myself that he was eating crisps or something. And that's its not his sweat, ew.

He yelps, jumping away he cradles his hand in the other and glances at me with shock. "Is that a no?" I roll my eyes at him and jump down on my bed to sit at the edge.

"That's a 'shut up and let me talk', seriously you can go on forever" he laughs at that and raises his brows in agreement. Coming to sit next to me on the bed.

"Yes I will go on a date with you" his whole face brightens up at that and he smiles, the kind of smile that reaches your eyes.

"Really? Okay good, I'm glad. I really want to take you on a date and actually move forward with... well whatever this is, since we... you know,kissed" I smile and snort all at the same time.

Looking down at my green covers on my bed I pick away at a thread, "I want to go on a date to. And yeah you're right, it is my first date" he smiles, "so you better make it the best date ever!" I squeak out and his smile instantly drops as his eyes widen.

I grin and laugh so hard that I fall off the bed.

*****

23rd May

We get out the car once we get to our destination, which is the hills we all keep coming back go. Our little spot away from our home town.

He blindfolded me before I could even look around, "you know I'm putting all my trust in you right now right?" I hear him laugh and I can just picture that stupid grin on his face.

"Thank you for that, I won't dissapoint" I tut at him as we carry on walking but once I trip a little I sigh.

"You know I put my trust in you that you wouldn't let me fall right" I leave the sentence open as I turn my head to him and pull a face. Which he can't really see because my eyes are covered.

But I can still picture the smile on his face and him shaking his head to try to get rid of it. He coughs to clear his throat. "Well I'm sorry for that, I was distracted" rolling my eyes behind the blindfold I grip his hand harder, scared that i'm going to trip again.

"Oh yeah? And what was so distracting that you made me trip" he sighs but not in an annoyed way, sort of like he's smiling (and trying so hard not to).

"You of course" i stay silent after that because I can feel myself actually blush.

Weeks and weeks ago I would have laughed in your face if you said I would be here, not only friends with Milo but currently going on a date with him. Which I never imagined.