love and war

I Hate How I Love You

Me and Finn were best friends, we would usually argue because of jealousy, he got mad whenever I would always hang out with Wyatt, Jack, and Jaeden. I would get mad when he would hang out with Sadie, Sophia, and Millie.
but this day it felt so weird..

"Hey y/n" finn said coming home to his house to see me laying on the couch on FaceTime with Jack
"oh hey finn! You wanna say hi to Jack?" I say jumping up hugging him as i let go when he walked away and slammed his stuff on the table "no thanks." He mumbled while storming upstairs "hey, I'll talk to you later..bye" i say to Jack holding back tears knowing that i screwed up, i walk up to his room to hear him sniffling. I stand at the door while sitting down on the last step of the stairs, letting my head fall on my knees curling myself up sobbing.
Play Wondering from HSMTMTS
finns pov
I was so excited to hang out with y/n, I walk into the door and enthusiastically say "hi y/n!" Until I hear a voice that sounded like a boy while she was laughing "oh hey Finn! You wanna say hi to Jack?"
She said while coming up to hug me. That was when my heart exploded into a million pieces, I slam my stuff on the counter and run upstairs swallowing the lump in my throat.
I slam my door and jump on my bed staring at the ceiling, letting all the pain out, I don't care how loud I was, I cared about her so much and I just don't want to lose her. I hear her walking upstairs so I start to be quiet because I want to be left alone. I start to have flashbacks of when it was only us..only us so no one could break up our friendship.

I wipe my tears and go to the bathroom to wash my face with water, I looked in the mirror and my face was really red, the pain I created just affected me more. "I love you finn" I say while getting no response and I storm to the extra room where I put my suitcase to spend the night and put on sweatpants and a baggy shirt so I don't get seen by paparazzi. I slam the front door and get in my car and start to play Wondering at maximum volume
I drive very fast while sobbing over the lyrics while screaming it, "if I could go back and change the past, be a little braver than I had" I checked my phone to notice I was getting a call from Wyatt, I decline the call while I wasn't paying attention to the road and a car ran into me, flipping the car over, everything starts to become blurry as it fades into black

I wake up in a hospital bed while a bright light is in my face, I close my eyes again and feel a familiar touch on my hand..it was Finn, I turn my head and look at him "y/n?!?Y/N OH THANK GOD I THOUGHT YO-"
"Well I'm glad I'm not" I say while smiling at him while grabbing his hand and squeezing it. "I-I forgot to say...I love you, you know before you left?"  Finn said while looking disappointed in himself "it's okay, I know you love me Wolfhard." I say while smiling at him as the doctor walks in.