Healing Hearts

Chapter One

Standing outside the school gates I watched as people walked around me, people I was once friends with, people who I had laughed with on a daily basis. This was the school I had been at for the past five years, I had this year left and I was done.

If I had it my way I wouldn't be coming back here, but my dad made me finish this last year. In all fairness I actually loved school, well that was until everything came crashing down and now I hate living.

For six weeks I haven't left the house, I don't even leave my room if I can help it. Since the funeral I shut everyone out. I just stopped talking. Well I talk to dad and that's about it.

I have nightmares, I wake up screaming in the middle of the night so dad sleeps in my room, luckily I have a queen sized bed so it's not to awkward with him there, he's like a safety blanket for me.

Mum barely looks at me, she just rolls her eyes if I pass her in the room, her and dad fight constantly. I have never heard them fight before and dad barely raises his voice but since Jake died all him and mum do is full on scream at each other.

I wiped my eyes on the sleeve of my shirt, yes I still have a cast on my arm, it's more so annoying than anything now, the stitches came out and I still cant look at my face, heck I could have food all over my face today and I wouldn't know.

I started walking closer towards the school doors, that's when the whispers started.

The dreaded gossiping had started and it wasn't even 9am yet.

Loud noises filling my ears, people laughing, calling out to each other, footballs being kicked in the halls as students started getting ready for classes.

I made my way to home room, I just kept my head down not bothering to talk to anyone, it wasn't like I was ignoring my old friends on purpose it was just that I didn't want to listen to them apologise about the loss of my brother.

I ducked into the room and thankfully it was empty, slumping against the wall I sucked in a sharp breath, feeling as though I couldn't breathe. I didn't want to be here. I just wanted to be home.

“Tess?” I jumped at the deep voice in the room.

How could I have missed him sitting there at the desk, my heart thumping loudly within my chest as he stood and started walking closer towards me.

“you stopped talking to us, why?” he spoke in a softer voice.

I shrugged looking down at the floor then looking back up into those dark chocolate brown eyes “thought it'd be easier for you both if I stayed away”

His hands reached out and gently placed them over my shoulders “Tess don't stay away”

“It's better if I do” I whispered looking away from him, he went to speak when the music sounded to signal school starting, Jasper just dropped his hands and gave me a small smile as I walked past him and over towards my seat, a chair by the window in the middle row.

“oh god Tessa” Esma squealed, I was still furious with her so I had no idea why she was even talking to me, and yes it may seem petty that I was holding a grudge against her but I guess sleeping with my boyfriend of six months for more than three months allows me to be mad still.

I kept my eyes ahead ignoring her, Jake hated her after what she had done to me, he even punched my ex Lawson in the face for sleeping with her, that was a day I want to forget.

Making my way as I walked down the long hallway towards the room where I had been in many times before, I could hear the noises that was tearing my heart apart as I got closer, my eyes filled with more tears as I turned to stand in the doorway watching my boyfriend and my best friend having sex, the guy that supposedly loved me and wanted to wait for me, wait with me.