Sometimes all I think about is you....

"Tom"

It was a warm night in July 2022. I was partying with my friends and i knew HE will be there too. As soons as I entered the Party, he starts ignoring me. Acting weird. I asked him many times what happened but he always told me there is nothing wrong. But i knew it is.

I was not able to hold his hand, hug him or kiss him. It felt terrible. When one of his drunk friends started to make jokes about us dating he totally disagreed. He wasn't comfortable with it.

I took him away from his friends group. And asked him what's weong when he suddenly made a bad joke:"I nedd to take a girl home with me!" Suddenly i stopped walking. I turned around and wanted to leave him but he pulled me back. "It was a joke!"
I didn't laugh, then he stopped laughing. "I am not only yours.",he told me. I was surprised. "Okay but dont act like i am just yours."i started complaining. "Maybe there is a guy who likes me and maybe I like him back." He looked at me. "Then go and tell him. I cant stop you about meeting other guys. We are not together."
"No i can not. I hate it that i cant move on because I want you!" At the end of the sentence i pulled my finger against his chest. He needed a second to realize what happened. I really told him that i like him more than a friend.
"Look you know i like you, but i do not love you as a girlfriend."
I was in shock. "Alright but stop acting like you want me and stop treating me like your girlfriend!" I was angry. Suddenly he started to tell something i did not understand. He tried to avoid the situation.
"Stop treating me like your girlfriend and treat me like your other shit friends."
I turned around and left. I could not believe it. After everything that happened between him and me.

He looked at me for too long, he hold me too tight, he treated me to much like his and he gave me too many forehead kisses to not be in love......