The Depressed Teen Love Story

A Kevin themed chapter

Sorry for the lack of a chapter everyone. I have been pretty busy.

Kevin's POV:

I have been on a pokemon binge... For the past few weeks, just to make myself feel younger. Back when I was actually happy.

Its been a few days since she left me, And yet I still feel that dread of self hatred.

And I just had the craziest dream about feeling loved again...
Or was it a coma? How the fuck am I supposed to know!

But I feel another level of hatred for that fucking asshole.

I don't know what to do. I should kill myself but, I have to be there for Jay. Plus I'm just too lazy to do anything.

All I do is just sit in my room, Listening to the same old shitty love songs over and over again, Then continue to stare at the ceiling while feeling this familiar feeling of emptiness.

Music used to make me happy but now. It just doesn't, It just makes me feel empty and alone.

Every fucking time, Someone fucking loves me, It's just temporary bullshit. And its the same bullshit over and over again.

"Why can't I ever be loved goddammit!"

I shouted

I then just walk out of my apartment to take a walk outside, And I notice how cold the air is. About like 17 degrees outside, But I continued walking, cause I just don't care anymore.

"I fucking hope I freeze to death."

I said.

I walked on a bridge next to a river, And look down into the water and notice its frozen.

I slip, Nearly falling into the ice cold river.

I hold on to a ledge

Fuck.

This is it, isn't it.

This is how it ends.

Me falling into a 6 feet deep river with a 12 foot drop, While it's like 17 degrees?

Eh seems like a reasonable death.

What about Jay though?

Eh. He has that chick now. Forgot her name though...

I guess this is my fate. So, Fuck it. I am letting go of this meaningless life.

Some girl running takes notice and quickly stops,
Yelling.

"No! don't!"

She grabs my arm.

Are you fucking kidding me... I say in my head.

"Let go."

I say.

"Why!?"

She asked.

"Cause I'm not worth saving."

I say in a snarky voice.

I don't even wanna look at her, God fucking dammit I just wanted to die.

I'm so fucking pissed right now.

"I can't judge you cause I've never even met you, But you're gonna freeze to death out here."

"That is the point."

I say

"Well you're coming with me anyways, I'm not gonna let you just sit out here, and freeze to death. Or fall into that river!"