Alluring Desire on Motherhood | Arzueza Series 1

CHAPTER 1

Celestine

"Tin... you will be experiencing a premature menopause for the coming months. You cannot get pregnant anymore once you've reached your menopausal period," the doctor explained to me in a soft, monotone voice.

"M-menopause?! Is this some kind of prank? I'm still in my late twenties, doc! I'm young and healthy! How is that even possible?" I asked her in a frowning face. Obviously, I'm not totally buying what she just said.

Pakiramdam ko ay tila ba humiwalay mula sa katawan ko iyong aking kaluluwa, matapos ang nakakagulat na balita niya sa akin. How can I make myself believe that I'll be in my menopausal period already, when I am still not in my fourties?

The doctor took a deep breath and said, "I totally understand that you got suprised, which is why you are reacting that way. But please... Celestine, you should calm down for sec-"

"Doc, how am I supposed to calm myself?! You're basically telling me na mas mauuna pa akong mag-menopause kaysa sa nanay ko. Are you aware that you're scaring all the shits out of me now?" Nakakunot ang aking noo habang malaki pa rin ang pagkakadilat ng mga mata ko dahil sa sobrang pagkagulat.

"Studies have shown that about one in a thousand women reach menopause before the age of thirty. Teens and even women in their twenties can still be diagnosed with premature menopause," pagpapaliwanag niya sa akin.

"Fuck! Why do I have to be that one in a thousand women?" I said in an excruciating tone of voice.

"Tin, I know this is insane but you have to accept things the way it is. After running through some tests, I could conclude that your ovaries will spontaneously stop functioning before you reach the age of forty. In addition to that, you will be needing to undergo hormone therapy in reducing risk to illness like osteoporosis and cardiovascular diseases," aniya na ngayon ay seryosong nakatitig sa magkabilang mga mata ko.

Nang unti-unti ng magsink sa loob ng utak ko na talagang hindi nga nagbibiro ang doktor ay nakaramdam na lamang ako ng biglaang paghapdi ng aking mga mata. "D-doc, this is so unfair. I... I also wanted to get pregnant and be a mother someday. How am I supposed to do that now? I'm not married... and I'm also not in a relationship with someone in the present."

"You can still get pregnant prior to your menopausal period, Celestine. Thanks to Science, it is possible to conceive on your own with the help of assisted reproductive technology like an IVF," she said.

"IVF?"

"Yes, IVF. In Vitro Fertilization. It is a medical procedure wherein your egg prior to your menopausal period, will be fertilized by a sperm inside a laboratory. You don't have to be with someone for you to be pregnant in today's technology," aniya tapos ay hinawakan niya iyong kamay kong nakapatong sa lamesa.

"With your alluring desire on motherhood, you just need a sperm, honey," she added.

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The next morning...

I was awaken by the sweet aroma of freshly baked pies and brewed coffee that wafted across my room. I sat up and rubbed my eyes.

"Oh, you're finally awake, sweetheart. Come outside. I prepared you a breakfast," saad ng aking ina na ngayon ay nakangiting nakatayo sa may pintuan ng kuwarto ko.