This Is My Life

Hello... I Love You

*Ashley*
She smiles and says, "Ashley.... I'm glad you're here. I miss you." I freeze and look down. "Really?" "Yes." "Why? Why did you do it? Why weren't you thinking? You could've called me and told me what's up. But no you had to drain yourself from blood and send yourself to the hospital. Did you ever think of me or Kashmir? Or of your family? What about them, huh?" I watched as the color drained from her face. "Ashley.... I wasn't thinking that's the thing. I would have called you. Told you what I'm going through but I didn't want you to be in charge of my burden... And about my family? I don't have one anymore. They died four years ago. In a car accident. So no I wasn't thinking about my family."

*October*
He just looks at me. Then I saw sorrow flick through his eyes. Moisture fills the rim of his eyes. I stare at him confused. What the hell is going through his head? "Ash... Are you okay?" He wasn't looking at me when he mumbled a "Sure." After that he turns around and smashes his lips on mine. My heart monitor started to pick up speed. Ashley smiles in the kiss and pecks my lips once more before turning around and walking out the door.

What just happened? I'm just so confused. Why did he kiss me? Why did my heartbeat quicken? Do I like Ash? Uggghhhhh. I just don't know anymore.

The door opens then closes. I hear foot steps walk closer and closer. I quickly look down and act as if I'm asleep. I smell cologne. Andy's cologne. I was about to say something until I feel his hand on on mine. I tense. Then he starts talking.
"October... Please I know you're awake but if you don't want to talk to me. I understand... No actually I don't but I'll leave you alone. But before I do I need to tell you this. I... I really like you. I don't know if you feel the same way but I just wanted you to know. My life has been a wreak with Juliet and has been a wreak without her but when I met you... I... I don't know... You just made me feel warm.. Alive. Like that feeling in the middle of my stomach. Really, I don't think Juliet has ever given me that feeling. The feeling of warmth. Well... I guess I'll go. So bye." When he finished he bended down and kissed my cheek. I heard his heavy footsteps as he walked away. Tears leaked from my eyes as I sat up. I can't do this consent feeling as if I'm hurting someone who has been in my life forever without them even knowing it. The doctor walked in and quickly wipe my face from the tears. "Your free to go October. Just sign this and you'll be able to go." She hands me a clipboard and asked me to sign where the x's are...