This Is My Life

Love Me Till It Hurts

*October*

Once I open my eyes I quickly close them again. I blink rapidly. "what the hell is going on here?" my voice is raspy. Just then a figure comes into my line of vision. Andrew. His eyes are wide with terror and sadness. I just wish he would say something but he did everything but that. He paced back and forth between the chairs and my hospital bed. He would sit down and hold my hand. Then get back up to break down crying on the floor.

"Andy... Andrew.... ANDREW!" I say. His head snaps up. He yells for the doctors. Once they come in he puts his hands on the doctor's shoulders. "She mumbled my name and then screamed it. But she's still not awake. What's going on?" Wait. I'm not awake? Aren't they aware that I can hear everything and see everything? Can't they see that my eyes are open? "It looks like she's being responsive and is bound to wake up anytime soon. You see, before there wasn't much brain activity. Just slow electrical currents channeling through the brain to keep her alive. So when she said your name it means she's able to dream of something or she can see what's going on. What is going on inside the heads of individuals in a coma has been steeped in mystery though." He just looked dumbfounded. I try to move my fingers just so he'd know that I'm listening. I couldn't. The doctor walked out and Kellin replaced him. He immediately grabbed my hand and squeeze. Andrew just tensed up beside me.

*Andy*

When the doctor was explaining what was going on I just looked at her the whole time. I wasn't really following along. So when the doc stopped talking I probably looked stupid as fuck. He left and the singer from Sleeping With Sirens replaced him. He immediately took October's hand. I tense and she squeezes her hand on mine. I turn my head to hers. Her eyes are closed but her eyes are twitching back and forth as if in a deep sleep. Then the singer, Kellin, I think, started to speak to her. "Look I know I made you feel uncomfortable when I told you... What I told you but please you have to wake up. If not for me then for Kashmir. Please wake up. We need you. I know you don't know but you deserve the best life can offer." Even though I hate to admit it. Kellin's right. October deserves the best life can offer. I have no clue what the hell the other stuff was about but that doesn't matter.

Kellin left an hour later and I was left alone, again, with her. I sat on her bed and held her hand. "October... I need you to wake up so I can tell you something. Please it's really important." then I lean down and kissed her softly and walked away.

*Ashley*

"Do you think she'll wake up soon? I need to tell her something." I say to Kashmir. "Well the docs said that she was yelling Andy's name. So very soon." I frowned and nodded. Andy came out of her room and I walked up towards him. "How is she?" "She's fine she squeezed my hand. She's not fully awake yet. Which really sucks." he looks down. I walk pass him and open the door. Her eyes flutter open and I finally saw her violet orbs. She smiles. "Ashley...."