Dead,but...alive (Raura) ON HOLD

I only feel love

"Well..  I don't really remember." Laura blushed,playing with the tips of her hair.

"What!? How can you not remember? We used to cuddle, while looking outside!" Anica crossed her arms,sending Laura a slight glare as if saying 'Liar.' I chuckled at their adorableness and grabbed both of them.

"Are you sure you're okay with this Austin?" Laura asked.

"Sure." I shrugged as if it was nothing, but my heart was beating out of my chest. I was nervous as hell.

"I just don't want to make you feel uncomfortable. You already did a lot for us." she kept rambling.

"Would you just shut up and sit down?" I chuckled. She's still really cute. Like really cute.

"Sorry."she blushed and giggled and sat down beside me. I scooted closer and wrapped my arm around her shoulder. I know typical player move,but in my defence,I guess I'm just old fashioned in that way. Plus.... I really want to cuddle... With Laura if you get what I mean...

She leaned her head on my chest and Anica layed on Laura's lap. It was a nice sight to watch and a nice feeling for sure. I could get used to it... I'd really want to get used to it. It seems awesome to have a family. But what do I know? I have no one.

I started humming a song out of nowhere. It just... Everything felt so natural,as if it was an usual thing. From that point,I already knew what I had to do. We watched a movie as well and by the end of if,Anica was asleep.

"My princess." Laura smiled ,while kissing her forehead and then she made a sudden turn to face me,making our faces centimeters apart. If it wasn't for our noses,our lips would've totally touched,not that I'm complaining or anything (sorry. I just love the smirking emoji )

"I-uhmmm. I'm sorry Austin."she gulped,while blushing.

"I-it's n-no pr-problem." I shuttered. What? She's making me nervous. I like her! Don't tell me you go all brave in front of your crush, because I don't believe you.

I just pressed my forehead on hers and we just starred at each other for a while,until she closed her beautiful brown eyes and let a tear slip. I wiped it away and brought her closer to me,moving Anica on the couch. I cradled Laura in my arms and just looked at her. Well more like admired her. I just don't get how can someone be so beautiful without even trying?

But then again. What might seem beautiful for me, might be the ugliest thing to you. But Laura couldn't be called ugly. She was my definition of perfection. Definitely the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. She is really special,that's for sure.

"Austin?"she called.

"Yes?"

"Would you do something for me?"

"Anything."

"Anything?"she repeated,as if she was shocked and somehow doubting my response.

"Yes. Anything. You just name it and I'll do it." It's true. I'd do anything for Laura.

"Seriously?"she questioned.

"Positive." I smiled at her.

"Then kiss me."she whispered.

"What?"did I hear that correctly?

"Please,Austin. Kiss me."she said again,with a pleading look on her face.

I placed my hand on her cheek,caressing it softly and I slowly started to lean in, totally insecure about what was happening. I mean she just asked out of nowhere. And trust me I really want to kiss Laura. Really bad,but something just seems so off about it.

Our lips gently brushed against each other and then Laura grabbed my head and smashed our lips together. My hands immediately went down to her waist. This isn't the kind of kiss I was expecting she wanted.

I thought it was gonna be sweet and I don't know...like a peck,but this was rough and forceful. We pulled out here and there for air, but only to come back again. I swear that it felt as if I was on cloud 9. It's like the best feeling ever.

It's weird how just by touching someone's lips with yours,it creates such a strong and amazing feeling. It makes my heart beat faster and creates butterflies in my stomach and I just can only want more and more of it. But no. I won't go further than this. Even thou I feel my pants growing tighter.

I slowly pulled out and looked at Laura's confused face. She opened her big eyes and looked at me ,kind of hurt.

"Why did you pull out? You didn't like it,right? I'm sorry-"I interrupted her babbling.

"I liked it. A lot,but I thought that things were getting a little heated. You kinda turn me on." I admitted, with a small laugh. She giggled as well and bit her lip. No! Why would you do that?!

"I'm sorry. You might think that I'm a terrible person. My husband just died and here I am in the arms of a really cute guy,almost having a make out session, but I swear to God that I'm not a slut. I just... You are so much like him and I loved Ross much more than words can say and since the first time you came,I just wanted to have you near me because you give me this strange feeling that I hate and love so much. You have no idea how much I've been willing to kiss you-"and me being me,I kissed her again. It's just...that lip bite got me and I was happy to see,well feel her kissing back. This one felt like we were both pouring our hearts out in it. How can someone you just met make you go head over heels for them? I might even be in love with Laura. I know I sound crazy and I know it usually takes time to fall in love, but I can't help it. It's what I feel. I only feel love.

Yeah,so I'm writing this from a hospital bed. I know it took a while,but one arm isn't working and it's kind of hard to write. And yeah. Up there is a picture with my bloody arm. It hurts...