(a/n This is my first story so it most likely wont be a total crap, but feel free to tell me if it is J Hope you enjoy it. Love you all.)
Nialls POV
Tonight we are having a movie night. We decided to watch Avatar. Movie was interesting but I had too much on my mind to pay attention to what was on the screen. I looked over to where Larry were sitting. They are together for almost a month now. They are always so happy. Then I looked over to Zayn. He looked deep in thought. I wonder what he's thinking about. I wonder will he ever know about my feelings for him. Yes, that's right. I Niall James Horan have feelings for Zayn Javadd Malik. And that’s just sad. I mean he’s straight. He has a girlfriend for gods sake! Why can’t my heart just forget about him and move on? Oh right because my heart choose to love him even if he has a girlfriend.
Ok that’s it! I had enough of my own thoughts. Time for bed!
“I’m tired so I’m going to bed.”
I went upstairs to my room, but I didn’t feel like sleeping. So I just sat in the chair besides my desk and pulled out my notebook. It’s not my dairy, it’s notebook where I write in song lyrics. I looked trough the pages and took in all the emotions that were put in those songs and just random lyrics. I took my guitar and flipped the last page with the newest lyrics.
“I can't believe that it hurts, cause it hurts when I breathe
And she closes the door as she leaves, from my life.
And I've told you before, when you break, you can't break anymore,
But you left with the dead on the floor tonight.
Now I'm standing on the edge of us, but I won't look down.
As I dive from the rooftops, screaming your name, get close to the concrete,
Baby you'll know it's true. Baby I'd die for you.
As I fly through the air, in the corner of my eye, I see your face in the crowd.
Got nothing else left to prove. I told you I'd die for you.
Baby I'd die for you.
It's okay, carry on. You don't know what you've got till it's gone.
Maybe you'll be the lonely one, next time.
And I'll always believe, that the love that you gave, you received
But you will never be alone with me again.
Now I'm standing on the edge of us, but I won't look down.
As I dive from the rooftops, screaming your name, get close to the concrete,
Baby you'll know it's true. Baby I'd die for you.
As I fly through the air, in the corner of my eye, I see your face in the crowd.
Got nothing else left to prove. I told you I'd die for you.
Baby I'd die for you.
Oh, Oh. Baby I'd die for you [x2]
As I dive from the rooftops, screaming your name, get close to the concrete,
Baby you'll know it's true. Baby I'd die for you.
As I fly through the air, in the corner of my eye, I see your face in the crowd.
Got nothing else left to prove. I told you I'd die for you.
Baby I'd die for you.
I can't believe that it hurts, cause it hurts when I breathe...”
When I finished I hard a soft knocks on my door. I put away my guitar and notebook before answering.
“Come in!” I answered with a sight
The door slowly opened and I saw that familiar jet black hair. My heart speed up the minute I saw him.
“So much for being tired, huh?” he said with a smirk on his face.
“Eh, came to my room and found out I was not in the mood to sleep.”
He walked across the room and sat on my bed. He looked so perfect. But the way he looks at me will always be the friendly way. . . nothing more. I didn’t even notice the tear that was slipping down my cheek, but apparently he noticed.
“Ni what’s wrong?” his voice was full of concrete.
Then I noticed my wet cheek and furiously wiped it. I have a choice tell him the truth and feel the pain of rejection or lie my way out of this. I choose second option.
“I – I feel just … a bit homesick. That’s all so don’t worry I’ll be over it soon.” I mentally cursed myself for shuttering.
“Oh. Alright then I’ll go to bed now and you should to. Tomorrow will be a long day. ” he gave me one last smile before exiting my room.
(a/n There you had it the first chapter. Hope you enjoyed it! I will try to update soon, but I have pretty much going on right now that it might take a while. Comment please!)
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