Memories /karlnap/

chapter one

Karl's pov

I'm sat criss crossed on the floor looking at scattered pictures of me and Sap from a few months ago when we were still together.

Although it still hurts me, It didn't hurt as much as before. Then one specific picture caught my eye.

I pick it up and didn't notice myself smiling. The picture was one of my favorite memories with him. Now they're all gone.

Suddenly I get snapped out of my thoughts by the doorbell ringing.  I quickly put all the pictures back in my box and hid it under my bed.

I rush down the stairs and open the door. My heart ached at the sight. His eyes met mine, tears threatening to spill.

"Karl, please I just want to talk.." he explains. I hesitate but wanted to hear what he needed to say.

"Please don't make this harder than this is Sapnap" my voice was shakey but he understood.

And there I was thinking I've moved on.

"Karl please.."

"Are you drunk?" I asked sternly.

"Wha- Karl just let me ex-"

"Are. You. Drunk. Yes or no" I started to get annoyed.

"Kar-"

"It's a simple yes or no question god damnit!" I snap.

"Maybe." He answered.

"Get in" I said dragging him inside my house.

"How many drinks have you had?"

"Just a bit" he slurred.

"Dry yourself while I get you a new change of clothes" I sigh passing him the towel.

I quickly head up the stairs into my room and grab his sweater that he left and some sweatpants.

I head back downstairs and hand him the clothes.

"The washroom's over there" i mumble.

After a bit

I got sapnap to lay in bed so he could just leave the next day.

Right before I was able to leave he called out to me.

"Yes..?" I reply.

"Thank you.. and I'm sorry for being such a dick to you our entire fucking relationship. I know I fucked up and you deserve better. I may not remember this when I wake up tomorrow but please promise me one thing.."

"What's that?" I ask.

"Promise that you'll take care of yourself when I'm gone.. forget about me, forget about us. Find someone better. I hate knowing that I was the one who broke you and tore you apart with just my actions. I regret everything Karl. I hope we could still be friends even after what I've done.." and with that he fell asleep.

I couldn't control my tears anymore. I ran upstairs and shut my door, crying.

'there's no good reason in make believing that we could ever exist again..'

I cried and cried until I fell asleep on the floor. No matter how much I wish to fix things together with him, I know It'll not work out.

'you can't be his friend, can't be his lover, can't be the reason you hold back each other from falling in love, with somebody other then you.' my thoughts yelled.