Secrets - A Lams Fanfiction

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~Philip Schuyler-Hamilton~

I sighed as I sat in my room at my computer. I used to love talking with my dads but now... I'm scared they're going to start asking the wrong questions. I'm scared I'm going to say something wrong that will ruin everything.

I've already had to lie to them. I told pops I was applying for jobs... I haven't even finished my resume. I told them school was great. It wasn't. It was the opposite. I told them Herc, my other step dad, wasn't there and I had a lovely visit with my mom and sister, that was definitely a lie. He was there, and all he did was yell at me, yell at my mom, and yell at Ava-Grace.

He swears that she isn't his kid and he treats her like he treats me. Like crap. But she has to be his kid. My mom would never cheat on anyone. She wouldn't lie about it either.

I hated lying to pops. I've always been the honest kid. Never a snitch but if someone asked about something, I would tell the truth. That's why I was the star student. Teachers pet. Not because I was smart. Just because I was helpful. Now I'm thinking about dropping out of one of the best colleges in the area because I can't keep up. And a few other things...

I can't tell them. If I did, they would probably kill me... not actually but they would be extremely upset. They paid for the whole thing. My mon couldn't get any money from Herc for anything but food and she was using the money she earned for Ava-Grace.

Obviously dad and pops understood so they paid for college... which will now be a waste because I am definitely going to drop out.

Maybe I should find a job though so that I can get out of this basement, as much as I do love the work I do on my computer.

~Eliza Schuyler-Mulligan~

I sat on the livingroom floor with my 3 year old daughter. She was cuddling in my lap as I tried to soothe her after Philip left. He visited me this morning which was great but I wish he would have called. Herc was still home and everything was a disaster.

He disliked Pip... which I don't understand. Pip is the sweetest kid ever. It hurts to see him grown up and at college and doing adult things. Maybe Herc blames him for the difficulties I had when pregnant with Ava-Grace.

I had Pip when I was 17, barely finishing highschool. That kinda wrecked my system I guess. And then not having a kid again for 16 years also played a small part in that. I don't know, maybe Herc just didn't like to see me in pain... but that was 3 years ago. He couldn't care less anymore.

Ava-Grace cried softly into me. She was yelled, at by her father which she hates. She didn't even do anything. I gently rocked her, humming softly.

"Ava... guess who you get to see later?" I said quietly once she calmed down mostly. She looked up at me with her big, innocent brown eyes. "You get to go to Pippys house and see Uncle John and Uncle Alex!"

She smiled and clapped her hands. "Miss them!" She said and hugged me. I held her close to me, holding g her head to my chest as I soaked up each adorable moment.

"Yeah, I miss them too. You haven't seen them in a very long time, huh?" She nodded a got up from my lap, pulling my hand to go with her somewhere.

"A billion years!" She exclaimed and pulled me all the way to her room once I stood up. She reached under her pillow and showed me the picture I took of her, John and Alex the last time they were together. It's the only picture she has with them and she loves it to much.

If she only knew it was the only picture she had with her father.