The Beautiful & Damned

Pilot

Pilot 

“Mom...I’m...I’m pregnant.”I said with a shiver, I stood in the middle of the kitchen with chills going down my spine.

She did a spit-take “You are what?” She said yelling at me. I felt her eyes pierce right in me. I was scared, I had been waiting 4 months to tell her. 

She got up and asked me again, “You are what?” she tried to be more calm about the situation.

 “Pregnant....” I said covering up my face. “Please don’t hurt me!”

“Since when?” She said putting down her newspaper.

“Four months ago.” I backed away slowly trying to resist getting slapped.

I think I backed away to much because I hit the kitchen wall and hit my head on a push pin.

“Don’t walk away young lady.” My mom said as she walked up closer to me.

“Mom can we talk about this in a calm manner? I know what you guys are gonna do to me. Probably going to kick me out, but give me time mom, I’m begging your soul to have compassion with me.”

“Come and sit.” She said sternly and walked back to the table. I followed her, once I sat down, she grabbed my hand and looked me in my eyes.

♦My name is Julianna, Im 16 and I got raped by my ex boyfriend. 

I didn’t want to cause problems for my mom so I told her that me and Charlie were back together and that we had sex and thats how I ended up pregnant. 

My mom was a single mom she had also gotten pregnant at 16 my dad never wanted anything with me or her,  so my mom went trough a lot, she was kicked out when she was 16 and she basically had to live in a box until she found a shelter, it was one year later when her sister let her have refuge at her house. My mom and I now have a stable home, a one bedroom apartment. Everything is quite big but theres a little bit of everything. 

Charlie has found me everywhere I went, theres not enough money for me to move again. My mom found out she was pregnant, but she had a miscarriage for the 3rd time. My mom is only 32 and i’m her only child. Our money is not a lot and her husband and mom just got a divorce, our life is hard right now and to be honest, I don’t want this child. ♦

“Honey there isn’t enough money for you to raise your child. Get Charlie to help you out, please. Baby you know that we don’t have a lot of money.”

“Mom, i’ll go live with him if it makes things better.” 

“You won’t do that! Most certainly not, you were under my supervision once before and you went out and came back pregnant!” Mother said, in a tone that I had never heard from her. It frightened me.

“Mom, we would have financial support from someone who isn’t Roger! Finally I would be able to say that we have broken free from his bad spirit. Mom, please let me just ask him for something, it’s his child and he should have a part in this baby’s life.”

"It's not the same Julianna! You guys are 16, Roger & I are older. We have some sense, what makes you think that Charlie is going to be there for you?"

"Mom just let me handle this." I said and I stormed out.

I closed the door behind me, I looked out in the distance and there was Charlie. I was quite scared, I wanted to turn back, but I didn't. My fears now trapped me, I saw him walking towards me. 'No turning back.' I said to myself. He came closer and closer.  Finally he had approached me. 

"Hi Hana, how are you?" 

"It's Julianna." I reminded.

"Sorry, I've just been down for what I did to you. I really am." 

"It's okay...I kind of have some news for you." I said as I rubbed my arm, the chills were already getting to me.

"What's wrong?" He gave me a cocked-eye look. 

"I'm," I stumbled beetween the words. I guess I really didn't want the though of having Charlie as the father figure for my unborn child. "I'm pregnant." 

"That's great!" Charlie exclaimed, he was overwhelmed. 

"No, it's not, Charlie I know things seem great for you, but I don't have money to maintain this child! Me and my mom barely have anything for ourselves. I can't raise a child, not financially." I tried making a point. 

"Look I have a house a few blocks from here. I have money, I have a job. I'll do anything for you, just one thing."

"What is that one thing?"

"Marry me." He got on his knee and pulled out a ring, as if he was already prepared for this.

"I - I don't know what to say, I'm only 16!

"Look we will only be engaged, you can come live with me and I will help you with your- our baby."

"Will we get married?" 

"Soon, its going to be a 4 year engagement. What do you say? Beautiful."

"Can I have time to thing about it? Please? I need to sleep on this."

"I'll be back tomorrow, don't make me do unnecessary things." He got up, dusted himself and came to me and kissed my lips. I was scared and grossed out. I can't possibly be engaged to someone who I feel no love for. 

As he walked away he turned back every couple of seconds, my facial expression was hurt. I'm disappointed in myself. I walked inside and soon my mom knew there was something wrong.

"Honey are you okay?" She called out as she looked at me worriedly. I felt the room getting smaller and smaller, but I managed to tell my mom what happened. 

"Mom, this means that I'm not going to have any freedom!" 

"Honey just sleep on it. At least he is willing to make a family, besides you two are together isn't it nice? Your boyfriend just proposed." She held my hand and set down her coffee. I felt terrible because she didn't know the actual truth.