angsty emos in love ahhh

think it through

Here you are, in your parents empty bedroom after an argument that changed everything between you and Xiao. Before coming to your parents house, you were leaving your shared apartment not being able to stand the sight of Xiao. Was that a bad idea? You couldn't think straight hiccup after hiccup from crying into your pillow for about five hours straight, you would have to come back to get your things right? How would that end..
Taking deep breaths you finally could breathe normally, at least only when you didn't think about the cruel things he said to you. Being the gentle, kind companion, hearing the person you loved most hurt you had you miserable. Worst part is that you have work 9 am feeling like shit, crying a little bit more you soon fell asleep of exhaustion.

First thing you wake up to is your mother softly tapping your shoulder to wake you up. Breakfast already prepared for you on the bedside table, your subtle smiling turns into a frown remembering last night. Your mum notices and leans down to give you a long soothing hug in silence for your throat was pretty dry and sore from crying and arguing.
As she leaves the room and you're eating slowly you check the time regretting not contacting your manager about cancelling your shift yesterday you realise maybe it's better and would help you get over it, maybe you don't want him, do you want him back? After hearing how much of a bitch he can be?
Sighing at the way your relationship ended you fall back into bed staring into the ceiling. You bring yourself on your feet and walk to the bathroom drowsily, getting yourself ready with the toiletries the bathroom had, before you knew it you were walking to your car as if you didn't just break up with the so called love of your life. 'This is how it will be from now on i guess.' you thought to yourself. You just can't imagine committing to him another time after that, there was no chance of getting back together again.

2 hours into your shift you squeal, your best friend scaring you from behind laughing louder than the stores music playing as you silently scold her for coming to your workplace.
"Why didn't you answer my texts!!" she says angrily
Making a funny face because you never saw any messages she frowns and pulls her phone out to show you

10:46 am

-y/n

-helloooo

-y/nnnnnnnnnnnn

-where r u???

-xiao came to my house just now

-he thought you went to my home, where'd you go??


it's 1:33 pm

Your eyes widen and you quickly make an excuse that you couldn't see your messages cause you're at work as she rolls her eyes "You're lucky i stalk you, i could've reported you missing" you guys laugh. "But seriously why did you disappear in the middle of the night so that Xiao had to wake me up from my sleep??" she suspiciously asks you knowing that something must have happened "Can i tell you later i'm at work!!" not ready to talk about it plus you actually might get caught slacking at work by a coworker, you walk her out. Luckily, it was almost the end of your five hour shift.

Straight after work you and your friend meet up at cafe nearby.settling yourselves up it was dead silent besides the sound of the busy restaurants and cafes whereas this one was quiet compared to the others. Already being served your drink you didn't know how to start this conversation.. after moments of sipping and silence she asks "So you're not together anymore..?", "Mhm" a short response. "Do you regret anything?" well that question was gonna linger in your head for a while "Ugh.. I don't know..."."It wasn't expected and caught me off guard, he got all angry for coming home late and uhh pfft it's all just a mess what happened next. It wasn't like a normal couple argument, definitely, I hadn't seen him the whole day as well but that can't be the only reason why he got mad."

"In the past weeks he'd been acting strange and grumpier than usual, honestly i was surprised he went to your house looking for me cause it sounded like he was sick of me." Swirling the straw around in your drink, not keeping eye contact, you know your best friend is worried about you. "If he contacts you anytime soon, don't read any of his messages, you're too exhausted and you don't need to talk to him now." She knows he would try find you again and that it wouldn't end well. "Yeahh okay.." It almost annoys you how predictable you are to her. "Why's it like you know my every move." You giggle out. She smiles at you with relief "Don't anything stupid y/n." You guys stand up and walk to your car. You say your goodbyes and drive home like your life was on autopilot.