Forgetting

Chapter 2

It has been 7  months since I found out i am pregnant. A ton has happened in those 7 months. My baby’s daddy, my first love, John walked out on me after a huge arguement. I was heartbroken, and I still am, but I am doing better. I have moved on for the most part. Things with the baby have kept me busy. I finished high school and earned my diploma. I have had many baby showers, and I have received many gifts. 

I have been to many doctors appointments, and I found out that my little bundle of joy is a GIRL! Her name is Ella. Ella Caroline Rogers. Even though John is the father, I didn’t want to give her that last name Stewart. As requested, John will not be on the birth certificate. For now her name is Ella Rogers. When I someday get married to the right man, Ella will take his last name. But for now she’s just Ella Caroline Rogers. I chose the name. I have always loved the name Ella and my grandmother’s name is Caroline. My grandmother is very sick and could be gone anyday now, and I want her to be remembered. She is an amazing woman and I want Ella to always have her near. Besides, Ella Caroline is pretty right?

I am currently 126 pounds, which means I have gained 29 pounds with Ella inside of me. The doctor said that it is very normal to gain weight and since I am so tiny, I am going to gain at least 35 pounds by the time Ella is born. 

When the baby is born I am moving down to Alabama to be independent and live on my own. My mom lives a bit over an hour away from where I will be, so if I ever need anything, I call and she will be right over. I am no longer allowed to travel more than 2 hours away, and I am huge! I am so attached to my baby. Right now my main focus is Ella and raising her in a good household so she doesn’t make the same mistake I do. Never in a million years would I call Ella a mistake. Ella is a blessing. She is my daughter and I love her more than anything. 

I haven’t heard from John since that night. His mom calls me every week and asks me how I’m doing. She said that if I ever need ANYTHING i can call anytime! She wants to see her grandchild, which even though John isn’t on the certificate, I am allowing his family to come see the baby. If he shows any interest in the baby, I have been instructed by the court to come to them first. I don’t want him around the baby though. 

My mom has been so supportive through all of this! She has taken me to all of my doctors appointments, bought me clothes, and helped me move most of my stuff down to Alabama. I honestly wouldn’t want anyone else to help me. She also has helped me with the heartbreak. 

The heartbreak has definitely been the hardest thing about this whole thing. Imagine having your boyfriend of 3 years suddenly walk out on you after finding out that you have a baby. I didn’t eat for days. My body felt weak. I almost lost the baby due to the lack of food. I felt like John had taken my heart with him when he stormed out. He pretty much had. 

After a few days of mourning I got up and went for a run. It felt good but after about 5 minutes of running I started puking violently.  I felt like I was puking up all my love for John. It wasn’t a good feeling. I heard a voice in the distance but I thought it was all in my mind. It wasn’t. I looked up and there was a boy maybe 19 or 20 standing in front of me just looking at me in shock. 

“Hey um are you okay?” He looked at my face then slowly looked at my stomach then at my puke in the grass. I just broke down and started crying. 

I was embarrassed. Embarrassed about being pregnant at the age of 18. Embarrassed about throwing up for no reason in the middle of no where. Embarrassed about crying in front of a very attractive man that I have never met in my life. 

I didn’t really make eye contact with him but he came and put his arm around me and told me to sit down. He asked me what was wrong. I told him that I was just overwhelmed.  He also asked how old I was and what I was doing running in the middle of no where. I just told him that I was 18 and that I just needed to get some things out of my head. I really didn’t want him to know that I was pregnant and I really didn’t want to talk about John right now. 

He was fairly attractive. He had dirty blonde hair, green eyes, and a perfect smile. I was apparently running on his land. I apologized and he said that its not often that he gets to see a beautiful girl run through the country on his property. I kinda lost it at that point. I got up and started to walk away without a word. 

He chased after me and asked me if he had done anything wrong and that basically when I spilled it all. Well at least about John. Not about being pregnant. I wasn’t ready to talk about that yet. I told him about John and our relationship and I told him that we had broken up, but I didn’t tell him why. I could tell he wanted to know why but he didn’t question. I eventually figured out that his name was Andrew. Andrew Cooper. 

I talked to him for a while and I learned about his family, his school, and basically his life. He offered to walk me home and I refused but he insisted. On the walk home he didn’t say much. When we got to my house I thanked him for everything and he said it was his pleasure. He also got my number. That sneaky little drat! 

I wasn’t ready to let anyone else in my life at that point. I had just been walked out on by the man of my dreams less than a week ago, and I found out that I was pregnant with his baby the day before that. I wasn’t ready yet. Heartache still filled my body. I was still broken inside. 

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hey guysss! 

sorry its kinda a filler chapter :/ I promise it gets better! I am debating on if I want to bring One Direction or not! Comment below what you think! Also what do you think about the baby being a girl and everything with John? And finally! Do you like the name? Ella Caroline Rogers! The baby hasn't been born yet so the name could still be changed!! Comment below names! Sorry! I promise the story gets better! Right now its kinda boring!! 

 

update for- 10 comments and 3 votes!! 

 

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Caroline