For the next week or two, Luke would chat with me on Xbox almost everyday. I guess for me, it was very different because I have never really talked to anybody on Xbox like all the time before but I really liked it. He made me laugh about the most stupid things.
Luke would always talk about dirt bikes and how much he loved them and sometimes it would get annoying as fuck.
Luke's best friend, Calum, would be talking with us most of the time. He's super weird and awkward... Calum liked me when me and him started talking but I wasn't really fond of him much. He seemed a bit to attached but a nice, regular guy.
We would all stay up till 3 in the morning just talking and playing Grand Theft Auto on the Xbox and killing each other most of the time and I remember getting so fucking angry that I would say I was going to leave but they were like no don't leave, we are sorry, I love you and all that bull crap.
Then a couple weeks later, Luke asked me out over text, saying he wanted me to be his girlfriend, and I wanted to. So fucking bad but I knew I wouldn't see him often since he goes to another school and we never see each other. And my parents would probably say no also.
I said no to him and when that delivered, I felt terrible, I felt like my heart was sinking because I knew it was not what I wanted.
I wanted to be with him, kiss him, share jokes when we are feeling sad, cuddle all day and not care about anything else. But it just wasn't possible.
He asked me why I said no, and I simply said that my parents said no and when could we ever hang out and he replied with a 'okay'. I felt so bad. After, my parents gave me like the biggest talk about it and soon after, I cried. I don't even know why I cried.
Later that night, I jumped on Xbox and talked to him about the situation and I could hear in his tone, the sadness, and I felt like crap knowing that it was my fault that he was feeling down.
I said sorry but I knew that wasn't enough.
Even though I turned him down, we still talked up until midnight playing video games. I still wanted to be friends with him no matter what. He's amazing.
A couple weeks later on December 20, I was at my mom and dads friends house and instantly I got a message from Luke saying,' will you go out me?' and I happily said yes.
I was so fucking happy, you had no idea.
