My world came falling down.

Changes

*  two weeks later* 

well its been two weeks of living at Ashtons. the only privacy I have from him is when im sleeping or in the bathroom. he drives me to school, walks me to all my classes, sits with me at lunch, and when he is a football practice he has me sit in the bleachers or has his mom pick me up. 

I feel like a child. and he treats me like one. I have no clue what changed in him. he was so nice and caring and supportive. now he is just possessive and controlling. he had his mom hire a dietician for me to "make sure the baby was only eating healthy foods". 

I swear he is treating my like a walking incubator. I have no clue what he thinks is gonna happen when I have this baby. I hope he knows I won't put up with anymore of his bs. but how would he know that when I have gone along with it all so far. 

its currently 11 PM almost midnight. I just woke up. I took a long nap after dinner. this pregnancy is making me tired. I don't know if its lack of sleep or the pregnancy hormones but its been a week of this shit and nothing has changed. so im going to give Ashton a piece of my mind. 

I grab my robe to cover myself seeing as now that im pregnant I have these new boobs and a tiny bump so my clothes fit tight. I am walking down the hall when I see his bedroom light on. but I stop dead in my tracks when I hear him crying. 

I know its him because no one else is home. his parents went on a little get away and his siblings are all at friends houses. 

I don't know what to do. but it seems like my body has made up its mind because next thing I know im knocking on his door. it takes a minute but he opens the door. he try to act like its alright and like he hasn't been crying but the redness under his eyes give it away.

" what are you doing awake?" he asks, i can tell he is trying his best to not look at my chest but his teenage hormones fail him because his eyes lock on my breasts. I feel the heat rise to my cheeks as I realize he is checking me out. 

" I couldn't sleep so I figured we could talk." I said. his eyes reluctantly looking back up at me. I can tell my behaviour this past week has confused him. the fact that im not bitching at him. 

he shrugs and lets me in his room. I sit on his bed and watch him as he sits beside me. I just realized he had not shirt on and was wearing low waisted sweat pants that showed off his physique perfectly.

I see him smirk when he notices im checking him out. "so you wanted to talk?" he asked. I nodded.

" what's going on with you? you changed after the doctors appointment and I have no clue why. if we are going to do this together you need to communicate with me." I said. trying to read his face. 

his face remains the same for a few seconds. then its overcome with guilt. " I know I have been controlling. I just can't lose this baby. or yo..." he cuts himself off and looks away from me. 

" Ashton what just happened? why won't you talk to me?" I ask. he doesn't look at me. this is when I know there is something he is hiding. something he worries is going to push me away. 

"Ashton no matter what you say nothing is going to change the fact that this is your baby inside of me. you will always be involved. so please just talk to me." I say. and with that he looks at me, tears present in his eyes. 

" I hate myself for what I did to you. i love this baby. and I don't regret them. but knowing people like Karrie have already threatened you. you don't deserve this. before this baby and before you I wasn't the greatest guy. I hurt a lot of people Karrie included. she still thinks we could be together but we can't be. I don't love her." he said guiltily. 

" Brooke I don't know what it is about you that draws me In but I can't stop thinking about you. the person I am with you is the person I want to be. I want to be the guy you first met. but I can't be him. so please go back to your room. I will see you in the morning." he said as his face turned cold. 

I wanted to stay with him but I listened and I went back to my room. and back to sleep.