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Back to past: Three days Two weeks (3)

Jung Eunbi returns to her apartment and sees Sowon is in her house, she steps back again to ensure that she is not entering the wrong place. Other than Sowon, another woman sits at the dinner chair between the singer and the actress-model.

"Umji?" the name owner shrugs as her name is called to ask what is going on.

"She seems rejected by her crush, hon." Umji walks over to Eunha who has stopped her movement and helps her to get off her belongings. "Leave it to you, don't drink too much. I'm getting to bed," she pecks and back to their room.

"What brought you here, girl?" Eunha watching the low-spirit model actress, "Ah, I almost forgot it, how is your day? Wasn't that the talk show recorded together with her? Your mood should be on cloud nine today."

Sowon sighs and takes another glass to gulp down.

"Rejected?"

"Not far out"

"It is that direct?"

Sowon lies back on the sofa without speaking a word. "My poor baby."Eunha lightly pats her head and brushes back the hair fallen down due to leaning down to the singer's shoulder.

Later on, the schedule seems to be under control, but Sowon does not feel that way. She feels like she messes up the entire radio show from her perspective. If her emotion can be described in a word, it must say that she is living like a zombie, not caring about what is happening around her. Thankfully, she has no schedule until next week's dinner. No one had a chance to see the soulless side of her.

Sowon plays the smart TV at will, as long as having sound in the room doesn't make her feel alone or creepy. The random next play is the latest episode of Yerin's variety program, unwittingly watching it like bewitched to her appearance, Sowon sighs. The upcoming video always comes in Yerin's as an algorithm works.

It was as if God was playing with her.

The day after, Yerin always popped up in her mind like in the show appearance, rewind how the cute acts and words in the show the entertainer preside for the program effect, couldn't shake off anyhow Sowon put hard effort on to forget about her.

Yerin never sends a message, she does not how to write to her, to explain. Or to apologize? She does not know how to describe the feeling of uneasiness inside her, or how to express herself to Sowon. The awkward stage they are now, like the distance of two same polar magnets facing together, in the time of keep rejecting to attract to the contrast side.

As Yerin has no idea of how she can clear herself to the model-actress, she constantly hypnotizes herself, only for the purpose of the talk show, hoping the latter doesn't take it seriously, but she somehow thinks that Sowon does, from how cold she became after the recording session.

"Is that merely my wishful thinking? 

"Is she actually looking for a friend but not over to the special status?"

Both of them sink into their own thoughts.

Think too much.

Sowon is panic when hops in her manager's car to fetch her to the restaurant reserved to watch the last episode's premiere together with the director and the staff working together a few months ago. She does not know how to face Yerin after all although she does not know how the latter acts.

Their seat is a bit distant, Sowon seldom joins in the chat and sips the drinks, secretly observing Yerin from her place using her peripheral view.

-

"Hi Dr Courtney, Ryu here, I accepted your offer," Sae Kyung played by Yerin stood in front of the window overlooking the distance while talking to the phone. The person over there was overjoyed due to the successful invitation months ago. The contrast to Sae Kyung, the unwillingness but resigned eyes could be seen after the call ended, remembering the whole journey together with Hae Jin.

"Hae Jin, you must be curious and startled that I've not appeared at your wedding ceremony right? When you found out this letter, I might have arrived at the place I always dreamed of, to pursue further studies. I'm sorry that I did not tell you earlier and you must insist to send me to the airport if you knew it. Someone had said that close friend doesn't have a secret, but we do, I do. You always ask me when could I find my Mr Right while you had changed almost three partners in a year, always introduce some guys to me from your circle, laughing at me that counselling the conflict between couples while the doctor did not fall in love before. But you seem like never noticed that my eyes and heart were always on you, and only you, not them. That day, I still gladly checked the guy your family forced you to the blind date, I thought that this guy will be the same as the previous one. But I'm wrong this time when you come to me with the invitation card. Just like a big stone keeps falling down to my chest. And I know, I don't have the chance to be with you, after all, I decided to leave. You must be shocked by my straight confession, however, it was not used at all now, let this feeling be buried deep down. Don't worry about how we need to face each other, we may not have the chance to meet in the future. I'm not planning to come back if doesn't have any urgency. I hope that I can be a man for you in my next life. Jinnie, Ily"

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Yerin keeps glancing over Sowon while her monologue in the drama is playing, she doing the same as Sowon does, but the main lead is drawn into the single scene of Yerin as she wants to know about the relationships behind the closed friend, perfectly like drama fans.

Not far as it, the last drama had come to the end, the staff watching together clapping their hard work to accomplish the whole project, sharing whichever scene had an interesting story. But Sowon seems to haven't regained herself from the intense watch of drama, blankly staring in front while others are cheering the drinks from person to person.

"Hey, Sowon, the director is calling for you," one of the staff sitting in front pokes her as she doesn't have any response to it. He points to the glass and signals for her to join them.

The director calls over to praise and has small talk with the actors, raising the glass to the middle and cheering. With the staff steadily decreasing as the time passed, Sowon excused herself and left as she felt she couldn't stay to watch Yerin talking happily to others.

By using the baseball cap she prepared all the time, she goes to a bar instead of going back to her house. A secret place where only insiders know about it, safety and privacy are the top priorities this club offer to its customers.

Sowon sits at the corner seat of the countertop. There are a few empty glasses in front of her which she has consumed everything inside. Not gulping hurriedly but sipping a bit by a bit, she does not how long time she sits there alone and her face is red. Sowon does not show her face to anyone, and no one assumes she is reaching the end of her limit.

Sowon makes herself go to the bar's washroom to sober up before getting back to her house. As she pushed the door in, she thinks that she is hallucinating.

"Sowon?" The person calling her is washing her hands in a stuck motion when she sees someone enter the washroom.

"Yerin?" Sowon narrows her eyes to ensure whether the person in front is a good living person or her illusion of being thinking too much of her. She even moves forward to the recognized voice wobbly and stretches her hands out to touch the person's face.

Her tipsiness doesn't help either, as her hand falls on Yerin's shoulder. "Are you drunk?" concerned Yerin as she never ever sees Sowon in a drunk state.

"Jung Yerin! How dare you do this to me? Do you know how much I want to be with you? Even in my dream, you always appear in my dream! Do you ..." The words speak halfway and Yerin notices Sowon falling toward her.

Definitely drunk.

Yerin helps Sowon get up, but the latter is limp and has trouble standing alone and needs support from another person. At this moment, she heard someone getting in the ladies, she had no choice but to drag the model-actress together into either cubicle. (There are only two cubicles in the washroom.)

Yerin covers the lid and sits on the toilet bowl, while Sowon lies on top of her. Her head is right next to Yerin's, the hot breath puffing tickles Yerin but the latter does not dare to move.

"... wanna be my girlfriend?* Rambling out the words left

Whispering love.