Beautiful girl|finn wolfhard

Dear y/n chalamet

TW this book has drug and alcohol use in it

Dear y/n chalamet I don't know hat I am doing with my life I write a lot and read and listen to music I only have finn,Sadie and jack as my friends we all skate and play guitar Sadie does drums jack can do like anything I have 2 brothers joe chalamet who is 26 and timothèe chalamet who is 21 he is 2 years sober today I am so proud of him I was one of the only people who understand him I was there for him and he is there for me he used to do drugs all the time but he is so much happier now he is like the boy version of me were really close because I live with him joe is in la acting and my dad is on a Business trip right now but we live with him I am 17 it is November 18th and I just want to fucking die I have been doing drugs but no one knows and I won't let anyone know when I am high I feel like I am not alone and happier just a little bit and started doing drugs just a few months ago my mom died in a car accident I was in the car in the back I was supposed to die but I didn't the only things keeping me alive right now are writing and music I have been bullied my whole life for my looks,my personality my life just everything that has to do with me I have gotten jumped to many times to count I have been cutting my self since 7th grade my dad found out so I stopped for a few years and I started in sophomore year and have been since I have cried in timothees,Sadie's,jacks and Finn arms to many times I just can't do life anymore I really can't from myself

Someone knocked in my door and I hid my note book under my bed "come in"I said "hey kid what are you doing"he said sitting on my bed "watching TikTok"I said looking at my phone "y/n why are your eyes so red"he said "there not"I said in a angry tone "look up"Tim said "no I don't want to"I said I was starting to get really mad "y/n let me see your eyes please"he said "no GET THE FUCK OUT GET OUT LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE"I said dragging him out I snapped and I slammed the door behind him then I rolled up some weed and started smoking it ans I opened my window