Taking Responsibility

Chapter 1

Omega. 

Ever since I first heard the doctor tell me that I knew my life would be hell. I always heard my father say that he prayed that none of his children would be omegas because he feared their safety. But dad was gone so that meant I had to protect myself. I didn’t want to live in fear so I did every single thing imaginimale to live as a beta so that I would be safe. I started taking heat suppressants and scent blockers since I first presented. I took odd jobs and basically everything I needed in order to afford them. But then, Chay presented as an Omega as well. And fuck, it was hard to buy suppressants for the both of us. I started to stop taking suppressants and for a while so that Chay wouldn’t have to suffer through a terrible heat and locked myself in the basement so that he wouldn’t see me go through mine. When I got a job at the bar, I was able to afford money for both of our medicine, and to even forge our second gender and we were able to live happily. That was until a tall light skinned man in a red suit was running as a bunch of guys chased him. He asked for help and I gave it to him for a price. When I helped him he had asked me for my name but I lied and went home only to find out that they might take away our house making me worried for Chay. I honestly forgot about the man until a few nights later I went to the bar for my shift and saw him with a bunch of other guys in suits and I knew that I was in deep shit. 

That’s what led me here. In a cell fighting my omega from taking over. This should have never happened. I found out shortly after that the guy who I saved was my mate. He didn’t know, but I did. It was late at night when Big asked me to escort one of Kinn’s friends home when I smelt it. It smelled like gunpowder, whiskey, and citrus. I could feel my omega yelling in my head. Mate. But I ignored it as I saw Kinn smile at the boy who looked clearly satisfied with what they had done. I knew Kinn was an Alpha but I had never smelled his scent because his older brother Tankhun was an omega and complained about the scent very often so Kinn used scent blockers. I walked away from the scent as I yearned to go to it. I never neared Kinn’s bedroom after that.

I remember the night it happened. I felt really warm. I don’t know why but I did. I felt really, really fucking horny. I just remember drinking water then the heat flooded me. My mind started to fear that I had forgotten to take my heat suppressants and that I was going into heat, but I remember taking them earlier this afternoon. I took them with my scent blockers. I ran to the restroom to see if I had slick but the thing was that I wasn't. I didn't understand what was going on. I just remember walking up the next morning and feeling a pain in my ass. I didn’t move, I just heard Kinn explain what happened. He told me that someone drugged me and that he saved me before they could do anything. He said that he took care of me. I just laid there feeling scared. I know they don’t know that I’m an omega, studies have shown that if an omega is drugged that they wouldn’t be able to produce slick, so my second gender wasn’t revealed, but my fears were still somehow proven. I’m vulnerable, people can take advantage of me, and in result can take advantage of Chay. I thought about Chay for the rest of the day. I thought about people hurting him the way they did me and somehow Mr.Korn let me go home.

And of course, Kinn had to ruin it. I just wanted to hang out with my friends for a bit when Kinn had to come in and bring trouble with him. We were taken and we escaped, I don’t know how we didn’t die in those woods. I don’t know how he didn’t realize that I was an Omega. It wasn’t until the second night when I felt Kinn draw closer to me and take a whiff of me. He thought I was an Alpha, which is understandable since my scent isn’t a typical omega scent. But it somehow saved me, making me so relieved. It wasn’t until he got shot that someone found out my real gender. It was Big, I can see him cover his nose as he got closer to me and gave me a bottle of pills as he and Ken, got Kinn off of me and took him to a hospital. I on the other hand took two scent blockers before I was taken to the hospital as well. 

Kinn, liked me? He took a bullet for me. He let me go. He let me kiss him. We were kind of awkward after that. He thought I was an Alpha after all and Alpha and Alpha relationships are rare and I didn’t want to tell him the truth. I worked hard on hiding my second gender for years and I really was thinking of telling him. And I actually was going to. Until I threw up. And again, and again. And again. I went to the doctor on my day off because only one doctor knows about my true second gender. I was told the worst news I had ever heard. I was pregnant. FUCK I left the doctor going to the pharmacy getting my percribtion. I stared at the ultrasound in my hand making me want to cry. I don’t know what to do. Kinn was the only man who I ever slept with so I knew he was the father. I don’t want to leave Kinn, but I don’t want to lose the baby either. But I needed to tell him, and if he didn’t want us, then I’ll leave. I was going to tell him, I really was. But Tawan returned.

Tawan returned and Kinn stopped paying attention to me. I was desperate, following them and trying to find anything that would make him notice me. But then Tawan used it to his advantage. I looked Kinn in the eye, begging him to trust me, and my heart broke as he said that he didn’t trust anyone. Big and Ken dragged me out of the office and took me to a cell. I didn’t yell or anything. I just sat there, waiting. And fighting. I could feel my omega trying to take over, but I fought.

But it didn’t take long for my omega to take over and lock my mind. I felt as my body started to shut down. I placed my hand on my stomach, trying to calm myself down, fearing for my baby’s safety.

“Porsche.” I heard from in front of me seeing Big look at me concerned, “Porsche you’re scent is becoming strong.” He said, making me panic more. He unlocked the cell and ran up to me trying to calm me down.

“Big.” I said, making him look at me. “My baby. I don’t want them to die.” I said, making his eyes widen before my eyes started to feel heavy. The last thing I heard was Big yell for help.