Was It Us After All?

Decisions

Zhe Yan
Donghua sits down and tea is brought for him.  We drink tea in silence before he sets his tea cup down and looks at me.  "So she finally left him.  I knew it was coming.  I suppose we should prepare for war now.  I will defend Qing Qui."  "When Bai Feng Jui became queen, any alliance deals were out.  That happened before the marriage of Ye Hua and Bai Qian. Also when Ye Hua died, the alliance was off.  I'm wondering what HaoDe will do now, unless he's still in the dark."  "He hasn't been told yet. Ye Hua has only told Lian Song and he told me."  "I told the disciples here to prepare for war.  My suggestion would be for Ye Hua and Mo Yuan to meet on Mount Cangwu and fight it out."  "An excellent plan.  When Mo Yuan returns we will present it to him."  We sat in silence for a long time before Donghua rose to leave.  "Send me a message when Mo Yuan returns.  I'll be in Qing Qui."  He walked out and left.  I plan to stay until they return.  I sent a message to Bai Zhen to come here as soon as possible.  Five days is going to pass by very slowly.  Very slowly indeed.

Mo Yuan
We have been here for two years, going into the third.  We are a couple now.  At first it was awkward, but now we are together in every since of the word.  We are affectionate to each other.  Her fox spirit was starved for attention.  I have not been able to detect any mark or mate before I marked her.  Why didn't Ye Hua mate her?  She was his wife.  Something has happened but it will come out.

  We went to a village at the base of one of the mountains here and bought supplies.  I bought her some simple gowns to wear.  She had told me she was sick of the rules and regulations of the Nine heavens, especially the clothing.  Qian'er always let her hair hang loose until she became Crown Princess.  She hates to be called that so Shiqi it will be until I can call her Qian'er.  My Qian'er.  She's lounging on the bed reading a book I bought her.  I also bought her a Jade bangle bracelet.  She wears it every day.  I cook our meals for us.  I've always known she had no cooking skills whatsoever.  When it was her turn for kitchen duty, the other disciples would always trade her out of it.   I call her to me when our dinner is ready. 

 She never eats much so I put things in her bowl to bring her strength.  She always smiles her sweet smile at me.  We clean off the table together and go outside to sit together on a large cushion to watch the stars.  I see Ye Hua's star next to mine, but it is not as bright.  I can feel him in my spirit.  He's broken, but he is doing nothing but wallowing in self pity.  I was told he did the same after SuSu died.  He only changed the day he met Bai Qian at that birthday banquet in the eastern seas.  Sometimes I wonder does Ye Hua still wish for SuSu to return.  

Zhe Yan told me about the whole affair.  Sometimes I notice her eyes bothering her, even though they are her eyes.  I wonder does Ye Hua even realize what this means to her ability to be in combat.  Bright lights still bother her.  I wonder how she has lived in the Nine heavens for one hundred years without constant attention to her eyes or maybe Zhe Yan tends them to keep her weakness quiet.  I'm sure he knows about us by now.  How could he not?  I'm sure Ye Hua has told him.  I'm wondering will war be at my doorstep when I return.  I need to talk to Qian'er about the future, but right this moment I just want to live in the tranquility and peace that we have together.  In some ways, the Nine Heavens has changed her and that is not to her good.  She's subdued, when she was once vivacious and free spirited, quiet, when she would once voice her opinion.  I hate what they have done to her. 

 Ali is the only bright spot.  I wish to see more of him, a copy of his mother.  I wonder how long it will take to crush his spirit?  I should send a letter to HaoDe requesting Ali come to Kunlun for training.  That way he could see his mother.  I look at her and smile.  I could leave Kunlun behind and stay here forever, but would Fate let me?  Will my life be forfeit once again for my brother?  He doesn't even know how much I've done for him.  I guess I could assume all debts were paid when he lost his arm and cultivation to make that elixir for me.  Qian'er lays her book down to look up and smile.  It always calms my spirit and brings joy to my heart.