Confession/Rant book

A bit about me

I'm a pan-ace trans male that prefers he/her/it pronouns and loves reading smutfics about my favorite gay ships. I dislike when people call me ladylike, and would rather prefer people call me masculine/manly instead, but personally neither is the best choice. I love making an wearing things like eco-friendly bracelets and necklaces and enjoy wearing baggy/oversized clothing. I especially loveeee oversized hoodies and sweaters, just because they make me feel safe. Despite what other people may think, whenever I wear a shirt that's too long but not long enough for me to leave it as it is, I'll tuck it into my pants. Whenever I have button up shirts I like to button them allll the way to the top. I prefer skirts and high-waisted jeans over shorts, and long-sleeved sweaters and jackets over shortsleeved shirts and tank tops. Whenever I'm alone, I like to roleplay with myself and use my inner voices to have other people with me. For example, whenever I'm found talking to myself, I'm actually talking to the other people in my head, like one of the demons that comes out in the pitch dark named Mrs. Ponderwall. She's a very classy woman that died in the 80's by getting her eyes scooped out of her head. She kind of looks like the mimic with the link hat on(look it up). She's a very nice lady that love sitting near my bed and humming to herself. Whenever she's sure I'll go into my room with the lights off, she'll stand by the door, waiting for me. Then there's Kyle. He didn't have a name at first, but I named him Kyle because 1.he's gay and 2.there's always a Kyle. He has a tall, skinny body, to be honest, he's more bone than demon matter.  He's blonde, and loves playing Sudoku for some reason. He stalks by my closet when the lights are on so he always has quick access to the only other place with light when the lights are off. I've never heard any McCafferty songs despite all the popular talk I've heard about their songs. I really enjoy watching anime movies, but don't really watch a lot of popular animes. I watch ones like 'Kuma Kuma Kuma Bear' and 'Bofuri: I Don't Want to Get Hurt so I'll Max Out My Defense!' (these are on Hulu). Sometimes I like to try drawing, but realistic drawings aren't really my type of thing.