Ishtar

Eight

"Pwede bang mamaya na kayo mag away? I wanted this to end I have a lot of things to do Zand you know that"

Umayos na sila at nagseryoso pagkatapos kong sabihin iyon

"Sorry Ish, anyway just like I said he will watch that EVERY SINGLE DAY and there's a time that our cousins visited us remember Dustin? he visited us an---"

"What?! How do you know Dustin? When did you meet him? Zand when did they met? Why did they met?" Galit na sabi ni Fin like the f! boyfriend ko ba siya? 

"Can you ask question one at a time? but of course I'll still gonna answer you. First, I got to know him because he became my schoolmate and I met him because of my friend in US we have mutual friend so pinakilala nila ko sa kanya. I don't really know why I'm explaining it to you." I confusedly uttered.

"Itutuloy ko na bago pa mag away kayo. So just like what I said nung time na pumunta siya sa house him being playful he meddled in Kuya's things nakita niya yung group photo niyo and of all people in that photo of course you catches his attention then tinanong niya si kuya about you and that's his greatest nightmare kasi bigla siyang sinapak ni kuya at tawa ng tawa yung iba namin pinsan kasi never in a million dream na nakita namin si kuya magalit he's a funny guy at kahit anong kalokohan ng mga pinsan namin ok lang sa kanya wala siyang pakialam so nagulat talaga kami sa reaksyon niya at after that we never mention nor look at the photo of that 'girl' kahit sobra na kaming curious although we never got to take a look at your photo even me I never got the chance to look at it or atleast once pero yun nga dahil na rin siguro sa tagal hindi ko na natandaan that it was you, we met a year after I took a glance of that photo so I really don't know. This is all I can tell you." 

"How did he end up being that successful kung puro pagkukulong lang sa kwarto ang ginawa niya?"

"I got the chance to know your whereabouts from Chad he told me that you've been hospitalized for months and you continue your studies kaya nagkaroon rin siya ng balita about you, although I don't really know what happen I already have a hunch that it's about lolo so I dedicated my time studying and working my ass off because that's the only way I can get near you without anyone's help. But fuck I don't even know that you're already near me for years." Fin said. 

Why do people always remember their exes so much and why can't I? I have so many questions I want to ask to him pero siguro today is not the right time for those I also need to digest my condition it's just hard to accept everything that is happening right now. Why me? Of all people why me? Am I really that unfortunate I lost my parents at a young age, being kidnapped by my ex-boyfriend grandfather and now I don't even remember him! 

Should I be thankful that I can't remember our past or get sad because of the memories we used to share together? A person with a painful past like me not remembering something is already a torture why? because having a happy memories with someone will always be our energy to begin every morning with positivity.

"Maybe we should continue next time I can't think straight right now. Zand can you escort him? I still need to attend a meeting for the auction I'll call you later. Thank you for helping me Mr. Freinrich" I said before leaving them there. I'm still freakin' confuse rn.