Under The Mask. [Sal X Travis]

Chapter 18: I'm sorry..

TW: Blood mentioned, more self harm, panic attacks.⚠️

Travis was feeling the stings on his arms from his scars. And he was feeling nauseous. He had no choice but leave Sal for a bit.

[ Travis' POV ]
"Hey, Sal um..im gonna go to the restroom real quick, okay?" I said to Sal. He took his head off of my shoulder, "okay." I got up from the ground and walked to the bathrooms. As I made it to the bathrooms, I ran to a sink and blood ran from my arms. 'Crap, the bandages are falling off.' I took them off and yep...fresh blood was running down. I washed my scars and dried them with paper towels. I inhaled through my teeth because the scars started to sting more. I threw the paper towels away and I looked down into the sink. Blood was in there and I sighed. I turned on the sink and washed away the blood. I sighed again and felt into my pocket and grabbed my pocket knife out. I looked at it and I pulled the blade out. I looked at it and it looked like it had old blood on it still. Yes, I wash it after I get using it, but I didn't wash it fully, I guess. I looked at my arm and back at my knife. 'A knife is way more effective anyway.' I pushed the blade against my arm, but not on my fresh bleeding scars, and did a stroke. I inhaled sharply through the teeth. I lost count of how many times I did this after 4 strokes. Each having a whince, and tear fall from my eyes. As I stopped, I dropped my knife. A sound of metal hitting the porcelani ground. I put my back against a wall and slid down to the ground. Blood was running down my arm to the ground. I was heavy breathing and I felt nauseous. It felt like I couldn't breath. I felt a chest pain. Like I'm being stabbed. I felt myself about to pass out. I closed my eyes, and everything just became black. I couldn't move. I then, passed out.

[ Sal's POV ]
It has been at least 10 minutes since Travis left. I waited at his locker. I wanted to check up on him but I wasn't too sure. I felt a tap on my shoulder. "Oh hey Philip" I said to him, "hey Sally Face, is it alright if I borrowed a pencil real quick?" I nodded and went to my locker to grab out a pencil. "Here you go." He took it and had a ripped piece of paper. He wrote something and handed my pencil back, "thanks man." I nodded I set the pencil back into my locker, "what did you write?" I asked curiously, "oh some chick ask me her phone number, so...yeah." I nodded and closed my locker. Hey, have you seen Travis? I didn't see him at the table he sat at, and I didn't see him with your group of friends." I began to worry a little, "he is in the bathroom still. I think." Philip then looked away confused, "hm...weird, okay. Well, tell him i said hi." He walked off and went back into the cafeteria. I was getting worried, and I wanted to check on him. I looked over at the bathrooms and I zoned out. I had thoughts going on my head. I don't know if I should bother him. I don't know if he's alright. I snapped back into reality and began to walk over to the bathrooms. But I felt hesitant to do so. I began to heavy breath. I just wanted to know if he was alright. I just want him to be alright. As I was only 5 steps away from the bathroom entrance, I heard my name get called. It was Mrs. Packerton. "Hello, Sal. Can I talk to you?" I looked over to the bathroom and back at her. "It will be real quick. I promise." I sighed and walked over to her. "I just want to say, thank you for the assistance in my class that other day." I helped her with getting paper organized when it was the 4th day of the first week of school. Let's just say...we acted like 5 year olds on the first day of school. "Your welcome Mrs. Packerton." She nodded and smiled sweetly. "Well, see you tomorrow." She walked off and I sighed again. I turned around and walked back to the bathrooms. Again 5 feet away from entering. I took a breath and walked in...as I did...I saw him..."T-Travis..."

[ Larry's POV ]
It's been a few minutes since I've seen Travis or Sal. I began to worry about Travis more. Now...you may be thinking..."omg, Larry has a soft spot for Travis!" I don't. He told me things that happened to him. And I'm only trying to help him. That doesn't make us friends. After all, I'm just worried what he's doing if he's left alone. But as my worries weren't enough to make me on edge, I get a text from my phone. As I took out my phone, it was text from Sal.
Blue Face- LARRY! COME TO THE BATHROOM NOW! GET EXTRA BANDAGES!
I got up from the table and left without saying a word. "Larry, you okay?" I heard Tood say, but I ignored him. 'Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit...' was going on my head. I went to my locker and I opened it. I grabbed some bandages and as I did, I also grabbed pain killing pills. Once I got the stuff, I went to the bathroom. As I entered the bathroom, I saw Sal and Travis on the ground. "What the hell happened?" I asked about to panic after seeing a lott of blood. I walked over and handed Sal the bandages and he instantly wiped away the blood and put the bandages on. I looked over and the sink and walked over to it. 'You just had to wash it out...' I thought. And I saw tiny specks of blood. I looked down to the ground next to the sink, and I saw...the knife he used...cover in blood. I began to heavy breath a little. And I looked over at Travis, now having bandages wrapped around his arms. I walked over to him and Sal who was holding him. "Travis...?" I began to feel sweat go down, my back getting chills, and my fist clenched. I went down to my knees and set my hand on Travis' shoulder "dude...please wake up...please." Sal then felt his chest to see if there was a heart beat. Yeah, there was still one. But I couldn't help but feel a little hopeless. "Please...wake up..." I felt a movement a little and a inhale from Travis. He then, opened his eyes. "Thank god..." Sal hugged Travis a little, "please don't ever scare me like that." Travis hugged him back. "I'm sorry..." he said, I could tell he had a bit of guilt build up inside of him. I set my hand on his shoulder. "There's nothing to be sorry for. Besides scaring us. And...um...this. But it's fine. Just as long as you're alright man" he smiled and little and just looked at Sal who was still hugging him. I got up and left the bathroom, "you going back?" I heard Sal say, "um yeah. I'm just gonna be by my locker for a bit." I left the bathrooms and felt my chest. My heart was still beating at a fast pace, and I was still shaking, I felt a panic attack about to happen so I left to go outside for a bit. (School can allow people to leave outside the school in a area by the basketball court.) As I was outside I sat on the ground and took deep breaths. I was still shaking, but not as much. After about a few minutes, I calmed down. I got up from the ground and went back inside. As I said, I was going to wait by my locker. So I did that. I know I left the others without saying anything but I wasn't gonna explain to them why. It is a promise I kept. For Travis. To never tell anyone what he told me. I sighed and leaned my back onto the locker.
'I'm sorry I wasn't there for you Trav...I should've noticed...'

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