Sweet dream ,beautiful nightmares

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Ari pov
I went into my house and went to the kitchen to get.. my bag of hot fries off the counter and walked back outside wit my hands behind my back
Dave..I hope your not mad.
Ughh..I'm not ari..he said in serious tone
Well good cuz I'm lying like a hoe I said bringing my hands forward with the chips in my hands
Brooo ..he said finna leave...ari why do u lie so much bro I swear u just lie,lie ,lie
I'm sorry I have a problem but it was a prank fr
Let me tell you why I really been sad I said tryna a get him to come back to the porch..
Bruhh..Ugh..ight he said walking back
Wassup..he said sitting down
Ok..I honestly don't know what wrong with me..I just feel like the world left me behind..you know??..I said telling him truly how I felt
Yea I understand you mean..he said
It's like I see everyone around me finding their purpose in the world and I'm still stuck here scared to leave my mom and granny..and you know as I'm getting older I just feel weird..I know my mom has taught me everything but I just feel like as soon as I leave everything I know all my morals are gon leave and I've seen it first hand how it is when you no longer have anyone to tell you how to live..yk?? all my cousins jumped off the porch and look at most of them in gangs, jail ,strippers ,young mothers ,selling drugs hell my parents were young parents and my dad is in jail for selling drugs it's like is it bad that I want more not even for just myself but for my mom I want to buy her a house with a huge back yard so she can watch her future grandkids play, I wanna be able to afford my granny a in-home nurse and pay all her medical bills ,I wanna get my brothers ashes in a real Urn , it's like this town isn't big enough for my dreams but I can't leave because I can't leave my mom and granny behind but I can't take them with me everywhere and tbh I don't think I've ever been anywhere with out my mom ik we fight all the time but that's prolly my best friend and that's the one person who I truly can't live with out besides God ..its like I don't wanna say fuck my dreams and sink in the hole like everybody else in this town and become a house wife like everybody else but it feel like it's a clear sign..
What do you think is the sign..Dave said listening..
Idk..like me and my mom moving back down here,my job just now promoting me to manager, or as soon as I started looking at housing in other places my mom loses her job , this being the last place my brother was b4 he died ,my dad being in jail here..it's like a connection with me it's the center of my life ...your here, everything I know is here..
Are you gonna say something..I asked him
Yea I hear Ari.. you want me to tell you the real truth or the truth you want to hear that's
..ugh both I need real judgement but not too much cuz I'm sensitive...I said chuckling
Ok..well for one you need to learn to leave your mom
I just can't..I sighed..
Let me finish he said...
You need need to practice leaving her because the more you stay under her the harder it's gonna be when God has the final say yk what I mean..
Just say when she dies..I said
I ain't wanna say it bcuz my mom always said that like manifesting it But yea that..he said
Ik but it's hard you already know I have attachment problems..I said holding back tears
Why is that ari..he asked
Idk maybe because almost everything I ever had has been taken from me..my brother,my dad ,our house ,my granny's house , now it's like me and my mom and granny are the only thing left yk?
Yea I gotchu..but you definitely don't need to give up on your dreams because at the end of the day this is your life yo mom can't live it for you ,you can always come back here, he'll do you even know if yo mom wants to leave this town..he started to say
Ugh...u don't get it..I said
I do trust me..I get it if anybody here gets it its  me
I been ready to leave.. I have no siblings ,my dad never been around it's me and my moms all the time and I don't want to resort to gangs and selling drugs I wanna make my mom proud too , but I can't make my mom proud without making my self proud first If someone truly loves you for what you are and not what you can do then they will love you for what you wanna do with your life..Dave said
Even if my dreams are stupid..I said as a tear flowed down my cheek
Yo dreams aren't stupid they just haven't been done yet so they seem unrealistic..
Thank you David..I said as we hugged and I cried in his shoulder
No problem..what is your dreams again by the way ik you want to be an entrepreneur but I don't remember the full thing
I want to own a business full of businesses like I want to have restaurants,hair salons ,nail salons ,I wanna own a place for moms with kids ,a boys and girls club type thing ,I want to own record labels I want to do everything..
Well you know what your grandma always says..
Yep baby you betta listen to that boy..My granny came out the house with her cane..
You know what I always say dolly..the world may deal you a bad hand but with God in your life you'll play the right cards..now I'm off to fix my flower pots out here..you babies keep chatting imma be alright...

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