thoughts

a try

Hello?

I think you can't hear me.

I would like to spend more time with you, is it okay?

I don't want to lose you.

I like your company.

Could we talk a little longer?

I want to get to know you better.

I don't want to do this this way.

You're kinda weird, I like that.

You're funny.

You're a little mean.  

I feel comfortable around you, but I'm scared.

I have lied to you.

You're not the only one I have lied to you tho.

I don't wanna say goodbye.

I don't want to sound so mean.

I don't quite understand.

This was wrong.

I didn't mean to.

Why do my lungs feel so oppressed?

I don't want to make a fool of you.

I don't know what your thinking, thats my problem.

I don't want to do something wrong.

I might already have done something wrong.

I want to do something!

Hey ^^ 

Fuck! I wanted to do something, really!

Give me some time...

Is it even worth it trying.

I really don't want to make you uncomfortable.

Here, now is the moment.

Where are my words?

It's okay, I can just try it next time.

Whats wrong with me?

We used to talk easily.

Thats exactly what I didn't want to happen.

What did I even think, it always ends up like this.

I can now change it!

Sike! My confidents just ran away.

Come on! I can do this!

Thats the perfect moment.

Shit, shit, shit, FUCK! I can't...

What should I even say?

It doesn't matter, right?

Then I can try now! I can do it!

*inhale*

Nothing?

What the hell!

Again!

I will try it again!

And again!

Damn it!

It just doesn't work.

What should I do?

I guess it is supposed to be like that.

I can try one more time tho!

Why am I so pathetic?

But... Do they even remember me?

Do they know who I am?

It's been so long?

Do they even want to talk to me?

Fuck it, I give up.

Wait, did I... think I had a chance?

HA, What the hell!

But, maybe?

Oh no, just stop this!!!

Good. It's over!

Wait!

IT'S over!

Ohhhhhh, Fuck!

it's over 

again.

oh god I'm so weird