I have opened my self into reality that I will never have a real brother with my own blood or persay from my family. It seems that I need to find a Brother-like figure in this vast expanding world of ours. This feeling has been hidden inside of me since I was 14. I have an emotional control of myself and sometimes it comes to a peak of crying...
As I travel familiar places to me, I always say to myself: "I'm going to find a Brother!" This quote has been on my mind every day, The time I wake up, The time before I sleep.
I dont want people to notice what I'm looking for. They might think I'm crazy and stupid. But for me this is a quest I will never forsake and be missed. For me, This is an epic quest. Like a little child's quest to finish the alphabeth. For him it's an epic quest.
I have secretly looked everywhere, The church, The town, The plaza, The jeepney, The bus, The terminal and the school. There are none to be found. I say to myself, Is this the end of my quest? Should I move on? I answer to myself: No, Dont give up...
I reflected that the heart doesnt beat for your love alone, But also for your family who cares for you and to whom you are getting your strenght. It applies to me, My heart doesnt beat for my girlfriend alone, It also beats for the person I really want... A brother my dear friend...
I also ask myself: "Where are you bro? Are you there? If so, Please come to me!" An irony of life.
