My life is considered by others as a happy life. They know my family well, But they miss something... They dont know what my deep feelings are. What are my desires in life.
It's been a 2 years secret between myself. I kept it hiding inside of me. Until this day has come to reveal it. The desire of having a brother seems kind of an odd thing to dream about. Some claim that having a brother makes you sick, makes you want to kill them and also makes you wanna leave them in a place. I negate those statements. I know whats the right thing to do to brothers like that. They need attention and love from their brothers...*sigh* which I always want...
Last years of my secret has been filled with tearful music. The time I heard the song "I Have You" by the Carpenters makes me feel nostalgic of my emotions. Trully the lyrics states my words: "Sometimes, When I almost to surrender. Then I stopped and I remember, I have YOU to save my day". That moment, Tears fell down from my eyes. Never realizing my need to have a brother.
Months went by and I kept on listening songs regarding my problem and still my problem is not solved yet. I have heard "I'm Already There" by the Lonestar with the lyrics: "I'm already there, Take a look around. I'm the sunshine in your hair, I'm the whisper in the wind, I'm your imaginary friend" makes me realize that I'm dreaming too far. To be continued...
