Tatiyanna's Truth

20

I thought my first night sleeping alone since I've been here would be peaceful.. but it wasn't... knowing me and Chris argued last night.

Honestly, I still don't know how I feel. Why didn't she tell me she felt like that?

Yes I knew the stuff with Alesha happened but I thought after I fought her it was over.. there wasn't a problem anymore.. and with Yas.. what am I suppose to do? It's not my fault people keep bringing her up. I'm dead ass trying to move on.

I woke up around 12pm on Sunday and got up and took a shower. I really need to focus on school today. With everything that's been happening lately the work has started to pile up.

I barely got through two assignments, I kept getting distracted thinking about Chris, our argument last night. I feel bad. She's right. I was being a bitch.. I was mad about shit that had nothing to do with her and I made it about her.

I opened our messages for the 7th time. I kept opening it but not saying shit

Tat: I wish I told you to stay last night

I sat there staring at my phone.. I've never really said anything like that to anybody.. it felt corny as fuck, but it was true.

After 10 minutes of her not responding I started doing homework again to distract myself. It's so weird. All I wanted was her attention. It's kinda scary to feel that again.. last time I cared this much about a response was Yas.

I was playing music trying to zone out and focus on my homework, I knew she probably wasn't gonna text back quick, because she's doing community service.

I grabbed my phone as soon as it dinged.

Kamayah: wassup.

I made a face. Girl if you don't get your'wassup' head ass on through.

I was about to set it down when my phone dinged again.

Chris: nah, you was right. I was getting too comfortable.

Tat: no, I want you to get comfortable with me..
I was being a bitch last night 🤦🏾‍♀️ I'm sorry

Chris: you was being honest. And so was I. It is what it is. I'm not pressed

Tat: Chris I like you...

I erased it, I don't know, it sound childish.

Tat: Chris I'm feeling you

Ew that shit sound corny as fuck. I erased that too.

Tat: Chris I'm not playing games, I really like you. I just couldn't read you. I thought maybe you didn't want me to actually be your girl

She texted back immediately.

Chris: good, cause I'm not playing bout you either. I knew I wasn't being completely honest about how I felt.. I just ain't wanna come off pressed on some obsessed insecure shit. I just wanted to let it go, cause clearly you're spending you time with me.

Tat: I've never loved being around somebody so much

Chris: chill 🥰.. you got me out here blushing

Tat: I'm serious!..

We made up after that and honestly everything was good,

We both agreed it might've been too soon to be damn near living with each other but we would still be cool with spending the night from time to time.

I spent most of my time this week on school and dancing. I want my fucking spot back.

Chris is back on the court playing this Friday but India is still leading. I have to find a way back on top.