Silly ( Boyxboy )

Silly me.

He was hopelessly in love with someone who'll never loves him back. This was the first of his disillusion. The time he lost to love and the time he took for realizing it, never it will be giving him back.

Love was something he never expected, his first impression of the boy was something rather simple. Taeil was really small and he was tall. But how come that someone this little could make it to the industrie ? This was indeed a good question. But Taeil had the voice that Jae Hyo wanted, he was naturally gifted. Jae Hyo was envious. And this is how his obsession with the little boy began. Observing him singing, dancing, eating, talking.. He didn't notice himself being attracted to the boy. He really was intrigued by him.

"Hyung, stop staring at Taeil-Hyung." said Jihoon while Jae Hyo was resting after his training. He only realized what he was doing when the younger told him, he looked at Jihoon surprised. "I was ?" and the younger nodded. "Yes."

It's just curiosity he tells himself every time he caught himself looking at the elder. Yeah, just curiosity.

Jae Hyo was fascinated, Taeil was the complete opposite of him, he was tall, with a high self-confidence, outgoing with an average voice, Taeil was short, he lacked in self-confidence, shy, but he had an incredible and powerful voice. Seeing the cute boy working so hard to memorize the step of their choreography or singing like he was dying and his hang-up about his height or his face was truly mesmerizing. Taeil had a bright future, then what about him ? How about him ? He still wondered.

Maybe it was the reason why he was feeling attracted by the elder. He had something he missed. Jae Hyo had the face, Taeil had the voice. He had the visual, Taeil had the soul.

Jae Hyo didn't really know how or when he fell in love, if you ask him, he would tell you at the first sight because he is a lost cause, but if you really asked, he wouldn't know because he still hadn't realized. But the truth is that he fell in love very slowly, spending every day watching him and spending time with his Hyung. This is how. It was really simple.

He didn't even realized it, to figure it, it took him one year or two, he's not really sure. It was really random, at an hour in the afternoon, between laugh and talk. The fact of him being gay wasn't shocking to him, he was just happy, happy to be in love with someone so incredible.

Jae Hyo did a lot of thing in order to impress the lead vocal. He trained and improved a lot, both in dance and singing. It was for the boy and for him as well, but for him he did it for Taeil. He acted like a fool in front of him just to make the dark haired man laugh. Sassy or like a child, just to have a little bit of his attention. He worked really hard to see his love bloom. He was blind.

'Taeil, Taeil Taeil" It was all he had in his head.

Blinded by love he took four years to realize his love was unrequited.

How long has it been since he fell in love with Taeil ? Jae Hyo didn't see the time pass, too busy trying to get his attention, too busy to run after something he can't reach, to chase for someone who never spared a look to him. He didn't see four years goes by.

The time seemed to not work well, he didn't realize it'd been four years. He didn't realize it was that long and that Taeil became the center of his world. Everything was spinning around him. Morning thinking of Taeil, lunchtime Taeil, afternoon still Taeil, night Taeil, bedtime, Taeil, again and again.

He was madly in love with Taeil.

He did his best to hide his feeling and control himself to not kiss or hug the lead vocal. But the other members of Block B weren't idiot, they already knew. Jae Hyo was practically shouting "I love you" to the face of the singer. Only the Maknae and Taeil didn't knew, they were thinking that Jae Hyo was naturally like this. But the act of the visual was really gross. Taeil and Jihoon were just dumb. Or maybe blind. Or just both.