Silly ( Boyxboy )

Silly us.

Some people think that a heartbreak is nothing, and that it's something you should forget fast, they say that we dramatise the whole thing, like it was nothing.

They said it like it was easy. Forget him.

Do they know how you feel after loosing your love ? Giving yourself to that person, do they know the efforts we do in order to please that person, the thing we do for them ? Just to be loved back. They don't know. They don't know how hard it is to be in love. The pain of a heartbreak is near from physical. You can't get out without a bruise. Love isn't just about happiness, there's a part of suffering.

Because we didn't think of an eventual heartbreak, we thought that suffering was something required to be happy in the end. Suffering was required. But we believed in our happy ending. So we didn't cared when we were hurt. In our eyes that person was our soul mate, our everything, because that person had the ability of making us happy.

You can't erase love this easily.

Even if you say that you erased it, it doesn't go away that easily. Four year of love is not nothing, four year is hard to erase from your mind. Four years isn't a lot of time, but when you spend nearly every single day with the same person the whole time, it feels like a decade, maybe even more.

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Everyone in Block B had noticed how miserable had become Jae Hyo. And it feels wrong, because Jae Hyo was one of the most joyful person in the band. They tried to cheer up the boy, with everything they could do. Too bad it wasn't enough.

Jiho tried to make smile the boy by inviting him to the theatre but he declined the invitation of the leader. Kyung forced Jae Hyo to watch "good" porn. Which he didn't erect or showed a sign of interest, letting the rapper at a loss of word, because it was one of the best movie he had. Minhyuk didn't do much, he watched TV with him, doing randomly some remark in attempt to have a reaction from Jae Hyo. But nothing, he just remained silent and continued to watch the show. Taeil didn't even know why he had to do that, so he bought some snack, mainly Doritos and chips. There wasn't any reaction because he just had left the bag of food on his bed without a note, so Jae Hyo didn't knew from who this was coming. Jihoon also tried to cheer him by buying a lot of plush, this was the reason of why he had so many girly plush on his bed ( Jiho also gave him a Hello Kitty one ). He didn't object, he just thanked the maknae and the leader.

So it was Yukwon's turn now to try.

He just dragged Jae Hyo with him to drink a coffee together, using his new addiction to take the boy out of the dorms to nearest coffee shop. During the walk the boy trailed behind the dancer silently, leaving an awkward silence. Yukwon scratched the back of his neck nervously but he said nothing and continued to walk.

When they were entering the coffee shop they were welcomed by the overwhelming scent of coffee, the warmness of the coffee shop was really comfortable and reassuring, maybe it was the reason why Jae Hyo drank so many cup of coffee per day, thought Yukwon.

Looking at the menu, he glanced at the brunet who was fidgeting with his hands as he was looking at the menu.

« Did you choose already ? » asked the dancer.

« Y-Yeah I'll just take a.. a.. Cappu- I'm not very sure.. Well I think..-»

« A Cappuccino and a hot chocolate for us Sir. » ordered Yukwon as he paid for the both of them, not minding that the boy was unsure of what to take, he smiled at Jae Hyo who was looking a bit uneasy but gave him a faint smile to reassure the boy that he was okay with a Cappuccino. After that they sat at a corner near to a window that was giving a view onto the street, waiting for their order Jae Hyo removed his coat and so did Yukwon, not knowing what to do Jae Hyo looked outside. Yukwon stared at the boy and Jae Hyo was aware of it so he turned to him and asked.