The Flame of Our Connection

PART TWO: The Kangaroo's Search for Solutions

CHAPTER one:

I honestly wish I was a human. It seems to me like their lives were simpler than the ones we furple have now. Whether or not they had relationship drama doesn't matter. I still think it wouldn't be the same as what I'm experiencing right now. Was it? I mean they were the ones to make the whole war by trying to take total control of each other and rule their world. I guess it was the final war to end them all. Thousands of years worth of humans and all they ended up doing was killing each other off and nearly doing the same to their planet. Some say it's a miracle that the United States government started experimentation on the couples that were left in those vaults to become bio-chemically changed into the furry messes we are now. Heh, I suppose they had to incest each other into making their species dominant in this destruction filled world. Was it the right decision? All we do is carry on pain anyway. At least for myself. I don't help the cores in their attempts to save this planet. I'm too busy trying to make sense of my own issues.

Like Similic.

I still don't get it. What he did, what he was saying...How am I supposed to take it all? I said that I wanted us to decide later...and we will. I don't know when I want to see him again, and I don't think I want to deal with the stress of it any longer.

So for now I won't. I'll choose to face it once we meet again. Or when the time comes.

For now I'm dealing with a county fair.

I wasn't planning on going out today. My friend had asked me to go with her and in the process made me aware of something I didn't know existed. I mean, how am I supposed to know that a random fair is currently being held at the Foxian core? If anything I was more likely to know that a freaking concert for Liberation Squadron was being held at the Servals' core.

I remember random stuff randomly. It doesn't help that I'm emotionally screwed up right now. It's not something to worry about, you can't help me, it's just something that I need to deal with. Because, let's face it. I COULD go to him and actually fix everything right now, but...I'm not ready for that yet.

That was something that was a concern to me about the fair. I wasn't sure if HE was gonna be there or not. I had to ask my friend Ralia if He'd be there. She knows who He is. I'll admit, thanks to what happened I've been socializing with my peers more. They've always wanted to hang with me but I never wanted to do the same with them. I really just wanted to spend more and more time with Him.

But now? I can't be around Him, not yet. I guess that means that now I'm okay with going somewhere with someone I haven't been with in a while. To try and get my mind off of what happened.

Ralia reassured me that He wouldn't be there. I hoped not. I'm not too sure if Similic likes fairs or not. He told me once that the last time he'd been to one was when he was little. I've never been to one in my life. Ralia apparently goes to these things every year. I would've known that if I had paid her more attention before. Ah well, better late than never I suppose.

Well she really wanted to go and I decided that getting out of the living building and doing something instead of sitting around moping all day could help me. I had texted her yes, that I'll go. She seemed pretty damn excited. I hope that will rub off on me. Who knows anymore.

Now, here I am, at the entrance to the Foxian Hyper Fair. Honestly it took wayyyyy too long just to get in! The wait lines for some of these places are ridiculously long dude, I swear. But it was alright, I played some Paths of Infinity the video game with Ralia on our hologloves during the wait. Some furson actually had to tell us to keep moving forward.