chris and i broke up 6 months ago and i'm still trying to get over him i watch his videos every wednesday and friday night just to hear him laugh.
last week a guy named dean asked me out so i decided in an attempt to get over chris to go on the date. he picked me up from my boston apartment and took me to a cute burger joint we talked and laughed and to be honest i had a really good time he walked me home and i looked into his deep blue eyes and that's where i found myself thinking of when chris and i walked through parks and ate ice cream while telling jokes and talking about our lives. god i missed him. i told myself if dean asked me out again i would say no because i don't want to break his heart he doesn't deserve that. he called me later that night and asked me out i said no but he kept on begging me over text for a week until i finally said yes.
this time is picked me up from my apartment and took me to a coffee shop, well not just any coffee shop mine and chris's favorite coffee shop. as we walked in a lot of emotions flooded me but i couldn't tell dean anything because he would know i wasn't over chris. just as we got our coffee i heard the bell ding on the door i looked over to find nick, matt and chris. i couldn't believe my eyes. this wasn't happening i took a second look and i saw chris look at me and dean i looked away and started talking to dean again but then the worst happened nick came over to me and said hi. i waved while sipping me drink and we had a short conversation about what we have been up to. he finally walked and sighed and turned to dean.
"dean i'm sorry i can't do this anymore"
"what, what do you mean"
"i'm sorry you don't deserve this i'm not over my ex over there," i said as i pointed to chris "i don't think i'll ever get over him and i can't do this to you i'm so sorry"
"it's okay i understand breakups are hard but when u do get over him call me you're really cool y/n"
i hugged dean and walked out of the shop and walked by to my apartment and cried while watching snapchat memories of chris and i.
this one is kinda sad. send requests kinda running out of ideas sorry
