"Melanie!" My mom yelled in her highest tone...
I panicked as I wiped my tears and went over to see why my name was being yelled half across the room..
"I- I'm coming ma"... I replied with fear in my voice as I ran downstairs...
To behold her looking at me with fiery eyes
"I said it before and am saying it again... I JUST WISH I ABORTED YOU!!!! She said with a high voice Why are the clothes not out of the gadamn machine?" She added
"Ummm- I tried to explain
"You're such a menace," she interrupted
"OMG! Get out of my sight, also you're grounded!" She yelled again with anger in her voice
With tears rolling down my Face I covered my mouth and ran upstairs,
Got into my room and locked the door. I felt like killing myself, my mom was always toxic but... She has never been this toxic before to the extent wishing she aborted me..
As usual I felt sucidal again and I wanted it all to end I took the new knife I got out of my drawer...
And slid through my arm, blood started dripping on the floor just then-
*Knock - knock*
'Who's there' I thought to myself..
I quickly wiped the blood and tied a cloth around the fresh cut
*The door opened, as Mia came inside and closed it back*
"Melanie, are you ok?"... She said in a worried tone
"Yes I-im Fine... Am just- I'm ok" I replied as I tried to hid my hand from her
"What are you hiding? I know you're not fine, I just came from school and Kayla told me that mom was being a maniac to you, Are you cutting again?" She asked "Let me see your hands" she ordered
I reluctantly showed her my hand as she looked at me disappointedly
She helped get Ice and pressed the cuts till it stopped bleeding,
"Go take a bath melie" she said
I got into the shower spent almost an hour in it, then came out only to see everywhere arranged and clean and her sitting on my bed waiting for me
"Get dressed and come and lie down " she told me
After I did, I went and sat down with her on my bed...
"Didn't we talk about you hurting yourself?" She asked
".........." I had nothing to say to her
" Listen melie, I know mom can be a handful sometimes but just understand that she's just mad and doesn't know how to express it- she's just- " she said then paused
I know she was just trying to make me forgive my mom, but I was still mad and can't believe she'd say such things to me as her daughter... But I just have to show Mia that I'm fine so she won't worry
"Don't worry Mia,am fine ok, it all in the past now" I said trying to sound fine
" Are you sure tho? You know you can tell me anything right?, Am always here for you
Love" she said in the sweetest tone ever
"Yes I am, thanks big sis" I replied
"Shush don't mention, it's my pleasure I'll go now, I have loads of assignments to finish" she said
I knew Mia was a very busy medical student and I admired her hardwork and with everything she still cared about me,she was just the best
"Ok sis you can go lemme get some sleep" I replied
She kissed my forehead and left,
I took a deep breath and hoped that tomorrow would be a better day for me ...
I closed my eyes n slept
