two for you.

one: This is OK

I never expected any of this.

I can't believe this university is horribly huge! It's not like the pictures I saw. Never thought my research would disappoint me this badly because right now, I am very very scared.

This is my very first day in Craige College. New college means a new environment. The amount of curses I said last night before sleeping was enough to make a whole fucking book. I don't even think I even slept. I am just straight up scared of what's gonna happen to me in this whole new school.

To start off, the gate was very huge. There's probably around thirty students going in and out at once in this gate, and I am one of those thirty. God knows what all of them are feeling. They might be feeling the same way as I do, or some of them might be feeling the complete opposite.

I looked carefully at the little map Gabriele gave me before coming here. She also goes to Craige, but she doesn't have classes until 10 PM. Very lucky. I know. So, I'm left alone now. On my first day.

The little guide showed me four big squares. The big squares indicated four big buildings in real life, and I'm flabbergasted at how real they are. How huge they all are.

As someone who grew up in a small city that only used motorcycles and bikes as means of transportation, this new setting makes me feel small. The idea of being in an actual big and crowded area makes me want to crawl up in a ball and hide. In short, I am not used to all of this.

Who knows what goes on inside these people's heads? Who knows how those buildings will greet me? Who knows how well I'll do here in Craige?

There is no assurance if I can even live peacefully here.

I guess leaving home was a bad thing after all. Is it too early to regret? Or am I just really insecure of who I am or am I just straight up delusional? Who knows?

"Excuse me," I suddenly stopped walking when I felt a finger touch me. Fuck. I curse at myself. I then looked at whoever it was and found myself facing a girl standing in front of me. She has the same height as I do. She has short black hair, and her eyeliner was winged. Just like any other student I've seen on these grounds. "Uh, do you know where room U-16 is? They said it's in this building-"

She probably realized that it was also my first time here based on how I widened my eyes when she stopped.

"Oh- OMG. I didn't know you were also new." She facepalmed herself. Aren't those things from 2016? And she pouted as if I wasn't scared of her. "It's my first day here too. Do you wanna walk together?"

So she's an extrovert. I could never ask a stranger to walk with me. I could never even ask her to continue walking with me if we ever share the same interests.

But I said yes anyway.

"So what year are you in? oh! Omg how rude of me to not introduce myself!" She chuckled. "I'm Linh. Third year. I'm a film student!"

Oh shit. We're literally the same.

"Harper. I'm in my third year as well. Also, I enrolled in film-"

"OMG YOU ARE LITERALLY MY OTHER HALF" Linh squealed as if there was only her and me in the area. To be honest, I was very embarrassed. But seeing someone excited over me, felt like a fever dream.

And so I allowed myself to smile and nod. "You're not allowed to leave me anymore. It's you and I from now on, Harper" She said while wrapping her arms around my elbow.

I guess this is okay?

-

Linh and I walked through the hallways of Craige together. Turns out we were both headed to the same location for our orientation, and I was thrilled to know that, because It's a good thing that Linh is here with me. That way I wouldn't feel very awkward walking through this scary place.

"I have a brother, by the way." Our conversation never stopped. "He's in the Med department. He's in fourth year now."

"I have a cousin in the Dance department. She's in fourth year as well."

And then Linh looked at me. "Wait," She raised an eyebrow. "You can't be Gabriele Hernandez's cousin, right?"

How popular is she?

"And if I am?"

And then she squealed again. "I KNEW I'VE SEEN THOSE EYES SOMEWHERE."

"Why? Uh, what's with my eyes?"

"You and Gabriele look like each other!" Linh said. "You might be wondering why I know her. Well, she is very good with people. She's like, she's friends with everyone!"

"I thought you were new here?"

"I am! But I've been here a few times and she's friends with my brother so that explains it." Linh smiled and I somehow found myself smiling as well. "But I wanna screw our older folks. Can't believe they left us all alone on our first day."

I was about to say something when a guy bumped on my shoulder. He looked at me with sharp eyes. His eyebrows were also raised, and I wanted to smack him. He didn't even say sorry. He just walked away as if I wasn't there.

"Who was that?" I looked at Linh who had her mouth covered. "What's with you?"

"Ohmygohd Harper fuck" She said and pulled me closer to her. "That guy who bumped you- that was one of the Alvar twins."

Her expression made me even more frustrated. "And? What's with them?"

"Bitch, they're like, they're like the most popular guys in Craige!" We continued walking as she spoke. "I can't really distinguish the two of them but I think that was the Med student. One of them is a Med student, and one of them is like us. A film major."

I don't really know why she's telling me this. I don't really care about the twins she's telling me about. If they're well known, then so what?

"Okay?" I raised and eyebrow and Linh shrugged.

"Come on. Let's go to class"

And so we did.