Falling For Mark

♔ ♱ Collection of Memories♱ ♔

The moon shone to the ones who were mourning, they cry to the one that they have lost. It has been the third day of the burial.

Just like their tears that Renjun watches over afar, the rain pours down that gave the breeze of coldness. Mrs. Lee had never recover, she begin to lost her reason and be fazed. Her eyes gloom, and darken even though the light was so bright.

She skipped so many meals, and didn't move from her chair. She was only staring at the picture of Haechan infront of them, Renjun's heart crash as he stay next to the woman being her guidance in this time when she is in her weakest. She was crying so silently, no noise just lake of tears coming down her cheeks.

She began being pale, skinnier, and lack of energy. "Auntie you will get sick please eat" Renjun insisted as he raise the bowl of porridge to the woman offering her a spoonful yet like everytime, she always whip it away and scatter the food on the floor.

It made Renjun stressed out, depressed.

"I'll clean it up" Jaemim came in with a mop again, "What time is it?" Renjun then asked, Jaemin just lift his wrist to look at his watch.

"It's already eight P.M." Jaemin rather answer, Renjun's curfew as her mother never agree to stay in this funeral anyway. She was not even favor of Renjun being friends with Haechan.

"I gotta go home".

"Okay".

Renjun always ask this question, Why does by stomach fuzz, why does my heart aches?

Locking himself inside his room, as he no longer can handle his life. It was too much, why does the lord bestowed him this kind of situation, he was never his strongest soldier, he always falter, he was too weak.

Everyone knows that.

He was nothing close to his friend, as they have something straight to look forward, they have the things that they are the greatest. But what about him? What can he do, he don't know. He felt so useless.

He was nothing but an average person who just assume and aspire to high.

The sun came up as if it was the happiest yet the road of this town street gloom, it was time for the final farewell.

Jeno stare at his own reflection on the mirror on his white shirt, fingers were even shaking as he put in every buttons to its places. His eyes met his reflection again.

Haechan like to look at himself in the mirror too, those were sudden thoughts of Jeno making his eyes pooled with tears again, he lay his head low as he try surpress his sob, you deserve better than this.

Haechan being revealed having homosexual relationship, the church quickly denied blessing his ashes before his burial. And the one who denied strongly was even Jeno's father. The church go against homosexuality, strongly, at it was a sin to God.

Sodomy is a sin.

Leviticus 18 and 20

"You shall not lie with a male as with a woman; it is an abomination." Chapter 18 verse 22. "If a man lies with a male as with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination; they shall surely be put to death; their blood is upon them."

It was repeated to him, over and over again like a spell, since he insist for Haechan's soul to be prayed and bless but his father never listen, the rest of the church started to also despise Haechan because this act, they started to throw word such as they are disgusted of the poor child. Like in the other day, they were crying for the deceased angel, but now curses this angel to go to hell as if he was Lucifer.