The End Of The World

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The autumn orange-red light is glowing on my skin and i feel the sun light on my eyes, they are puffy and red from crying to much, the light is govering a bit of my acne. I hade just gotten screamd at by my foster mom, i look myself in the mirror and i feel pretty for once. I take out my phone and go and look for a filter when i see "message from aleksander" i muble to myself all while looking at my dirty desk right infront of my bed, what does he want? I wonder

Aleksander was a childhood friend who i reconected with druing the summer, no one knows yet but we kind of lost conntact a few weeks ago, i look at my phone screen, its a picture of a orange dark brown bakgrund of books. I wonder what he needed while i open the message he had sent me, it said something along the lines of "hey! Hang out after school at our usual boba met up?" I was a bit late with my responds, i roll my eyes seens im in 9th grad and we are still not alowed to have phones in class. I respons rather quickly before i catch myself smiling. I become annoyed with myself but ignore it and say "yea for sure! U coming to pick me up?" He text me back with a smile emoji and says "haha yeaa hope i dont get caught sneeking out this time" i giggle at my phone screen and getup from my bed to go to my messy closet, i take out my clothes its my usual black skirt with my white leg warmers, i take out a brown sweeter with that and my totan bag the sweeter and leg warmers are new, the rest are old and pretty dirty but i know he wont juge me, so i just go with it, i dont have the energy to look for new clothes, i continue to take my convers on and i take my headphones with me in the bag. Ugh my eyes are puffy from crying and my mascara is all smuged, i slowly go to the bathroom praying my shoes wont fail on me again, i get to the bathroom safely and start to rub the mascare of it start of gentaly but before i know it im starting to rub more, and more agresively, i fall down to my knees an inch away from the bathtub and i start to cry quietly. "I just wish mom was here" i muble i get my ass up sooner or later, it feelt like i had been on that cold floor for 45 minutes when it has probably been 10 minutes i start to apply new mascara when i here stons being trown at my window i rush to the window and se alexander there, i blush a bit before i get my act together and start to clim down.