𝗬𝗢𝗨𝗡𝗚 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 ── 𝗖𝗛𝗥𝗜𝗦 𝗦𝗧𝗨𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗢𝗟𝗢

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˚ ༘♡ ·˚꒰𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗲𝗲 ꒱

(tw: mention of death, death threats, and name calling of the words out of the book)

It had been 3 months since I found out that Chris had a crush on me and as the days and weeks went by I slowly started to fall for him, I know I should probably tell him but I just have way to much going on my mind right now, recently my mom had been diagnosed with cancer and turns out she didn't have much time left 3 months is all she had left. And it really broke me the most since me and my mom did almost everything together and had more similarities than my dad,I just wonder if I'm gonna be able to make it without her but I just won't worry about that now. Everyday social media has been hating on me for hanging out with Chris and stuff and that really hurt me even though Chris stood up for me and told everyone to stop hating on me but the numerous dm's clearly didn't stop but he loved being an influencer as much as I did but he never got the hate I got, I hadn't talked to anyone but Nick and Matt since I knew that they would probably understand more than Chris and I haven't really talked to Chris in the last month it was me and not him but I knew I had to do it for myself but it didn't help for what I needed. I just gotten home from school and I was walking Bowie when I had ran into Nick, "Oh hey Halston" Nick says, "Hey" I say as a fake smile appeared on my face, "How's it going?" Nick had asked as I shrugged, I was dying on the inside from everything and everyone, "Just same old same old" I say as Nick pulls me into a hug, "I really think you should go talk to Chris he won't sleep without knowing that your okay" Nick says as I sigh, he's right I had seen Chris's text but never responded, "I guess your right" I say letting go as Nick pulls me into their house, "If your gonna talk your gonna wanna do it now" Nick says taking Bowie to go play with Trevor.

I knock on Chris's door, "Wh-Oh my god" Chris says as he jumped on-top of me pulling me into the world tightest hug ever, "Can we talk?" I ask as Chris nods letting me in shutting the door behind me, "I know that I've been distance the last month but it had nothing to do with you it had something to do with me" I say as Chris nods rubbing my hand as I take the other wiping my eye, "Sorry" I say, "It's ok" Chris says as his eyes softened, "My mom was diagnosed with cancer 3 months ago and I just couldn't find a way to take the news very well so I thought shutting everyone out was the brightest idea but it really wasn't" I say as Chris brings his hand to my cheek rubbing it and pulling me into a hug, "I'm so sorry is she gonna make it?" Chris asks as I shake my head no, and that's were the tears started, "So that explains everything" Chris says as I nod, "Yea" I say sniffing as I wipe my eyes, "You know I'll always be here for you no matter what" Chris says as I look up at him, "And I promise I'll always be there for you too" I say as Chris holds his pinky out, "Are we really doing this?" I ask chuckling, "Yes we are" Chris says as I hold my pinky out doing a pinky promise. Chris and I stayed in his room talking about life, "Are you excited for the homecoming game?" I ask as Chris shrugs his shoulders, "I mean it's the same thing every year so I know what to expect" Chris says as I nod, "Well I've never been to homecoming" I say as Chris raises his eyebrows, "We didn't have homecoming in New York at my school", "What kind of school did you go to?" Chris asks, "Performing Arts school", "Performing Arts?!?", "Yes Chris" I say laughing, "Like did you sing there or something?" Chris asks as I nod covering my face, "Holy shit balls Nick come here" Chris yells, "What you asshole" Nick says walking in, "Did you know Halston was in a literal performing arts school?" Chris asks as Nick nods, "Yes I did now may I go" Nick says crossing his arms, "Did you know that she was in a school rockband I guess not" Nick says as he walks the room, "You sang in a band and didn't even tell me" Chris says grabbing his phone, "Chris please don't" I say trying to grab his phone as he find a video on my moms Instagram of me singing, 'Back to Black by Amy Winehouse', "Halston this is amazing" Chris says as the video ends, "Oh thanks" I say embarrassed, "Theres nothing to be embarrassed about thats some real talent there" Chris says as I burst out laughing, "Your so funny" I say, "I'm not kidding Halston, I mean you could have a literal career traveling the world" Chris says as I kind of realize that he is kind of right in some way, I mean I could achieve my dreams.