enmagines

heeseung: liham

"So.. open the letter when you leave Seoul. Or whenever you are not in Seoul anymore.." He chuckles. Lee Heeseung's words. We were having a hearty conversation when he suddenly talked about this letter he wrote. On my last day in this trip, really?

I will miss this city. And remembering that I am going home tomorrow makes me feel sick. I dread going back because of work.

Oh, and maybe it's because a part of me will badly miss Heeseung. But I will not admit it to him. I don't know, I just feel like I will look for his presence. I mean he was with me the whole trip, touring me around here.

He is a friend from childhood.

We haven't seen each other for years. Last time I saw him was new year from when I was 15. Lee Heeseung is a childhood friend I was dearly close with and I only reconnected with him again recently. We were basically best friends. Inseperable, always dreaming, playing.

He drove me to the airport at night. "Goodbye, I'm so happy you're going home already, so no one will steal my ramyeon." He jokingly said and laughed. I will miss your laugh, too.

"Have the ramyeon all to yourself now." I chuckled. "But no one's gonna treat you to iced coffee anymore, hm?" I told him.

"I am just kidding, miss." He laughed. "Come back to me, again, hm? And miss me even a little, too." He said.

I will miss you, Lee Heeseung. Oh, yes, I will.

"Surely, I will come back soon.. I won't miss you though," He rolled his eyes at me. "Joke.. But seriously, I really miss you already." I said with a smile. I thought I won't admit it, but I did, in a spur of a moment.

He looked me in the eye.

"Basahin mo ang liham. And don't forget about me, ah? Text me even when you're away. Still, tell me your stories and interests. I will visit you one of these days too." I nodded at him. "Ingat lagi. Eat well, and stay healthy."

"I'll miss you!" He waved his hand at me. "I love you."

"I love you too, my childhood friend in Seoul, my tour guide, my one call away." I said. We both chuckled.

"My love, take care of yourself, yes? Safe skies tonight," He told me.

I was in the plane when I read the letter. I am not in Seoul anymore.. so that mean I can read the letter already, right?

The letter is in a cream colored envelope and it has his initials engraved in it, it came with a penguin sticker as a seal too.

To my dearest,

You got a letter from me.

When you read this, I know you are not beside me anymore. Physically. Because you've probably left Seoul.

Ah, right, Seoul.

They say Seoul is so alive. It is full of life, which is true. I was also shocked the moment this city first came into view of my own eyes. I said, "Seoul is so beautiful. It is so full of dreams." Because my dreams belong here, Miss.

And if living in this city full of life means fulfilling my greater dream, I will endure. Later on, in the process of feeling accomplished, I realized I have another dream too. It is the dream I left the moment I left you. You are part of the dream and you are also the dream, Miss.

I told myself that I will bring you to Seoul and I will show you around. So this week, I fulfilled that promise. I will bring you to places I built memories in, to places I left marks in, to places that are beautiful, and to places that will make you feel in awe. I wanted to show you so many beautiful things.

That promise meant a lot to young Heeseung who learned how to dream for love.

But will you believe me if I tell you that for the past few days I felt like..

Seoul is beautiful but not as striking as your beauty.
Seoul's night lights are breathtaking but not as the way your eyes will light up everytime you laugh.
Seoul is crowded but still, I can only see you.

'Ah.. Sorry, Seoul. She charms me more than your busy streets and her eyes enchant me more than your bright city views.'

During our trip, I realized something greater. That it wasn't the views, the sceneries, the lively atmosphere, the busy stoplights, the youth with dreams, and the big building displays that made it seem so.. interesting, entrancing, and remarkanle. It was you and has always been you.

You are stunning. That's even an understatement.

It's my first time seeing this place like it's so magical and unique. Thank you. I will wait for the moment I experience that feeling again.

I love you dearest, my first love and my bestfriend.

Go places with me.

Always, Lee Heeseung.

I hope you know you make my heart beat like the first moment you caught my eyes, in every moment we spend together. I love you too, my first and second love Ethan.