Please Just Remember (Sebasdion)

figure it out

Still Wednesday.
My eyes start to get heavy and i lean my head over on what i think is a pillow and i fall asleep.

I wake up and I'm laying on top of Dion

We're we cuddling? What? I'm not gay. Is he?

I sit up quickly and in the process wake him up. I can tell he saw i looked confused.

"Oh u guess we fell asleep" he laughs

"Yah. I guess so"

"You ok?" He asks

My mind races and i instantly start to break down. I fall into his arms crying. Everything i have been thinking about for the past few years comes out of me like lava.

"I've always known i like guys but I've never admitted it. I've always hided it. In Mexico it's not really ok. I still like girls but i also like guys. I think I'm bisexual. I've always known. But i can't be my parents always said it wasn't ok. My father just died and i don't want to let him down for being gay. I just can't i don't know what to do."

"Hey it's ok. It's ok" he says holding me close

My crying slows and i feel safe around him.

"Hey I'm here for you ok." He says

"How can you be here for me if you don't know what I'm going through?"

"I know what your going through love." He says "I'm gay and i started out bisexual because i didn't want to let my parents down but i figured out i only like guys"

"So your saying that I'll eventually learn i only like guys?"

"No no no no no" he starts " you could be bi you could be gay i don't know. it's not for me to decide you have to. But i can help you along the way."

"So why did you bring up the starting out bi thing?" I say scooting back

"So you would understand that i have had problems figuring out my sexuality." He says

"Can you help me figure out mine?"

"Uhhhh..." He starts

"Not like that. I mean like could you be there for me and i dunno kinda help me figure it out. But not in like an experimental bang bang bang kinda way"

"Yah for Shure" he laughs

All my stress slips away as i scoot back closer to him. I effortlessly fall asleep in his arms.

Thursday.
I wake up to the delicious smell of bacon and eggs. I sit up and realize i fell asleep on the couch. I look over towards the kitchen and see a shirtless Dion making breakfast.

Damn he is hot. Wait no i can't be attracted to him. He is the one helping me figure out my sexuality. We strictly said no sexual experiments between us. But i can't help but notice his abs.

I get up from the couch and walk over to him.

"Good morning"

"Oh morning Mate" he says turning around

"You making breakfast?"

"Yah" he stops " oh know do you not like bacon and eggs. I can make something else for you if you want."

"No no it's ok"

"Ok cool also i put my shirt in the wash because you drooled on it all night. It was soaked i wish you could have seen it" he laughs

"Ohh sorry"

"Nah it's fine" he says " your cuteness made up for it."

I blush and turn around. But play it off cool. I walk to the bathroom.

"I'll be right back" i say before closing the door

"Ok" he says

I lock the door and take a deep breath. I think of doing gymnastics to stop myself from blushing.

I walk out like nothing happened and sit down at the table.

"Here" he says putting a plate in front of me.

"So what do you want to do. We have a few hours before we have to leave."

"Up to you." He says "i don't really care"

"Let's go to lake Ontario"

"Oh good idea" he says " i know a good Clif jumping spot"

"Ooh I've never been Clif jumping before"

I take a bite of the eggs. My mouth explodes with flavor and u grasp. Dion looks up quickly with a conserved look.

"These are the best eggs I've ever had. How did you make them Dion?"

"Oh my Mum always made them that way." He says

"Well there so good"

"Thanks" he says

We eat our food and change. Dion has some blue and pink short shorts and a white tank top.

I look down at my trunks and i decide to take action.

"I don't like these" i say

"Hu? What's wrong?" He asks

"These shorts i don't like them they aren't me."

"Come on" he says grabbing my hand "I'll take you to where i got mine"

We get in the car and he drives to a shop downtown. We get out and he leads me inside. The first thing i see are some short dark green shorts. I walk over and grab a medium.

I turn around after holding them up to me. I see Dion holding a yellow-orange button up shirt. He gives me a smile and hands the shirt.

I walk into the fitting room after grabbing a pare of sunglasses and I change. Once i slip on my shirt i look at myself in the mirror.

It's the perfect outfit. Green short shorts paired with an orange jockstrap Perfectly matches my yellow button up and reflective sunglasses.

Anyone get the reference to his outfit? If so let me know in the comments!

As i walk out Dion turns around and and smiles.

"Wow you look good" he says. His eyes roaming all over my body.

"So i should get it?"

"Uh yah" he says "here leave it on we will get them to scan it at the front."

I grabbed my old pare of clothes from the fitting room and followed Dion to the front. The cashier scanned my items and i payed.

We get into the car and Dion starts driving towards lake Ontario.