March 2nd 2015
( the day we met)
I'm a bundle of nerves right now I can't believe that I auditioned for this show what was I thinking I'm so nervous I feel like I'm going to shit myself, I'm scared to meet the other girls what if there horrible? What if I can't make any alliances to stay? Oh god Brenda is getting to me fuck my life anyways today is the first day of filming and I'm fuckin gonna throw up I hope I don't make an ass of myself in front of the whole godamn world,
I have to go now but I'll update this again tonight.
Katya
( 10:30pm)
Ok first day of shooting was hell oh my god I feel like I made a complete ass of myself ugh this sucks well at least I have this journal to write in to keep my sanity in check besides Brenda being well... A pain in my asshole sorry to much but the most amazing thing did happened today on set that for the first time made me smile I met this hot guy named Trixie Mattel well obviously that's not his real name but still he's so damn cute I mean at first I thought he was part of the fuckin crew but when I introduced myself to him he was kind and smart and so handsome when I shook his hand I swear I felt electricity run through us oh god I sound like a fuckin high school girl I should just go to bed now.
Peace,
Katya.
March 3rd 2015
Ok day two of filming hopefully I'm not the first bitch to be sent home god I'm so fuckin nervous I'm a total wreak I hope to get to know Trixie better even though this is only day 2 I just for some reason feel attached to him like a needle being dragged towards a magnet I just ugh I need to clear my head I hate catching feelings but how could I not when your shooting a show with someone who is hot UGH!.
Katya
